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Eheheh... I'm back...
          
          Okay sorry I felt awkward typing that eheh. Anyways I think I actually kinda like (like like) one of my best friends...
          
          
          
          
          
          
          I'M SERIOUS WTF DO I DO I SPEND ALMOST ALL OF MY LUNCH BREAKS WITH HER AND SHE KEEPS HOLDING MY HAND BUT SHE HOLDS OTHER PEOPLES HAND TOO– AND LIKE SOMETIMES SHE PUTS HER HEAD ON MY LAP– SOMEONE KILL ME PLEASE BEFORE I EMBARRASS MYSELF x//x
          
          Why does my brain get so fuzzy omfl and holyshit she's so pretty too and funny and like really cool and awesome and ajsfshehd I think I'm actually losing my mind here... ehh this is so fucking weird, I hate it, this feeling actually makes me want to break something sharp and use it to gauge out my eyes so I don't have to see how fucking amazing she is.
          
          No good outro so have this half-assed weird outro I came up with on the spot– remember to draw a banana in sharpie on the next person's forehead that you hang out with if they end up sleeping :3

Uh guys did I do something that made you guys not like me because I'm starting to feel nervous, 8 followers in less than a week to lose makes me feel like I did something bad... someone tell me what I did, I swear I can change it or fix it or do whatever to make you not hate me...

Don't do drugs, it's not fun. Also don't do meth, from my experience of trying it once, not being able to sleep properly, then absolutely crashing the next day, I can say it's the worst experience ever. It did tell me that I actually have adhd so I got one good thing out of it- anyways, don't do drugs.
          
          Also if anyone cares, the reason why I know I have adhd from trying it is because it's prescribed to my friend who has diagnosed adhd and it have me all of the effects and side effects it gives her. 
          
          My bones hurt anyway bye that's all for today

My mom swung a knife a little too close to my face to point at something and genuinely got mad at me for flinching, called me an idiot for being scared when a sharp object moved quickly towards me, and then got upset that I didn't want to eat the food I was making because I lost my appetite. Is that not normal human instinct? I thought everyone got scared when a fucking steak knife gets too close to them. Am I in the wrong for getting scared because of it? And she wonders why I don't feel safe around her.

I got munched on...
          
          Fucking OM-NOM-NOM'D
          
          This person told me she bit hard, I was either lied to or my pain receptors have actually stopped working because wtf..? She was biting really hard and I was just letting it happen because I really wanted my lighter (side note, if I had a smoking problem like they suggested shouldn't they have been trying to take away a pack of cigarettes rather than a lighter since I can't legally buy cigarettes until im 19? I can buy a lighter at the dollar store, by the way. It would be more logical to take away the cigarettes than to take away the lighter. Anyways, I've never smoked but I like the smell of burning stuff so maybe that might be worse.) It didn't hurt that much... is there something wrong with me?

My friend bit me and went on to act like I'm the weird one for bringing a lighter to school. I GOT FUCKING BITTEN. SOMEONE CONVINCE ME SHE DOESNT HAVE RABIES BECAUSE SHE LOOKS A LOT LIKE WILBUR SOOT WHEN SHE HAS CIRCLE GLASSES...
          
          Someone help me please I tripped on an apple earlier when I was running away from my friend and then I got tackled by two people and got my lighter taken away. I only just learned how to use a lighter last year and they don't trust me with one... and they were the ones who taught me how to use one :/ I feel abused from the tackling.

3 months clean
          
          
          Sorry for the lack of announcements recently, school started last week and I'm just kinda stressed, plus I got kicked out of my account for a few days.

My back is aching so bad my posture is cooked and I was wrong about when school's starting again, everything's going bad... and my room smells very strongly like bleach because I'm an idiot who decided to bleach fabric in my bedroom.

Guys I'm sorry my last post sounded like I was gonna commit murder I just needed a realistic thing that could kill someone without it being suspicious when buying it- I had a book idea that I might put murder in *dies of being bad at talking without sounding insane*
          
          I swear I'm not killing anyone I'm just trying to write a book that sounds at least semi realistic... 
          
          Also really bad time to add this but I don't wanna make another post. I finished the patch stencils and I'll bleach them later, I got my mom to agree to buy me a leather jacket eventually (at least a year from now, at most when I'm buried in the ground and decaying) my floor is covered in scratch marks in one area from the box cutter I used to cut the cardboard.

Anyone know of a store bought poison that can kill a human? Asking on the behalf of a friend. Deleting this post if even one of y'all decide to report me. I'm walking on eggshells with wattpad right now...