@fff97777
i think i'm gonna take a break from wattpad, i don't feel good enough to post anything right now so i feel like a break would be good. uh idk if anyone cares enough to respond, i just don't rlly want anyone spamming my notifications during this time. i'm not quitting, i just want to take some time away from wattpad.
why are girls seen as crybabies when they cry but when a boy cries they're seen as brave? why do boys get to bully girls for crying while the same boy cries? i just don't understand this double standard. or maybe this only happens in my school.
@fff97777 honestly anytime a boy cried in my school the opposite happened, a few of the other kids would make fun of them. This hasn’t happened in like two years, so I don’t know how people would react now.
@fff97777 A lot of times boys also get told to "man up" because crying is a "girl thing". Kind of off topic, but still a pretty heartbreaking thing. Btw, how are you doing???
I feel like I could kms and only one of my (irl) friends would notice.
That's kinda sad ngl
@TheFangirl185 yeah, but socialising is hard and I've been in the same circle for so long that I can't see myself being in a different friend group than ones that I've been in
@TheFangirl185 I'd probably tell him about it before I do it though and he would notice after I don't appear near him for two days
i just sneezed with my eyes open
the trauma will live with me forever
Hoi <3
It's 3am and I need a snack but I don't want to summon a demon so I'm going to starve
The demon is my mother at 3am
Hey, you aren't lonely, I'm there w you!!!
i can't sleep
every time i try, the horrid playing of Rosa Lee on my violin starts, and wakes me up again. that song traumatised me.
my friend made fun of me for a year for liking hamilton (she never listened to it), and now she likes it guess... it's fine for her to like it but not me and she also never apologised for making fun of me, so i kinda feel like it would be better if i only hung out with my friends from a different class instead of the ones who exclude me from everything they do. kinda rushed rant but yeah i needed to say something. i feel like the friends i have in my class just hate me and don't want me to be near them but idk.
same friends, different story
my friends wonder why i say that i need different friends or when i say that i want to die when they make me hate myself, they make me feel bad about my body, and i just started liking myself but i guess that isn't something i deserve if my friends don't even let me enjoy my life. they don't let me enjoy the things i hyperfixate on, because it's "weird", but as soon as another person likes the same thing they're praised for finding the things they like. so yeah, that goes out to my friends, who actively replace me with other people. maybe i'm a bad person and maybe they don't like my personality. they could've just said that i'm annoying and i would've changed my personality so they don't hate me but they didn't and i feel like i'm just bothering them all the time now but i don't know what they want me to be like so i can't change myself.
sorry if it's hard to read, i didn't feel like typing this out on my phone lol.
@TheFangirl185 lol I don't mind if people try to relate to the things I say. Thank you for being there for me, I really appreciate it.
heyyyyy how are you?????
and how was your bday???