finnaprada

anyways conclusion is i should definitely take beta blockers 

i love a high school trope  

good thing i can escape to my wattpad wonderland and read a story 

thanks girl <3

@finnaprada omg that’s alooooot but first CONGRATS ON THE UNIVERSITY!!! that’s a big deal and I felt the same way when I got accepted into my university, don’t stress too much and do well but don’t forget to enjoy it ❤️ 
            
            About the boy though, if he’s getting married then (hopefully) it’s super serious and I would hate for you to put yourself out there if you know it’ll end in heartache. I felt the same way for a guy and I just had to let it go, but it led me to my now husband! So it’s all a risk, but every decision will only help you get through this crazy life 

okay I’ve spammed

@finnaprada if you ever need anything please let me know, ive been in a place with no one to talk to so dont ever hesitate to reach out, i will be there for you and try to help in any way I can 

@iadorekoo its so weird bc i literally am u four years ago. im twentytwo, what are the chances. & thank u for ur kind message it gives me some hope at least </3. 

@finnaprada I feel like you’re me four years ago. I’m turning 26 and but the last couple years were definitely rough, hence my absence from here and everywhere else until recently. Just know you got this! Life is a balance and it’ll tip in a good direction eventually, you’re never given more than what you can handle ❤️ if I can make it through and still struggle with what I’ve got, I know you can 

but it’s okay I’ll just take the day off tmr 

i just wish i could cancel the plans but that’s bad manners 

i havent slept today either bc my stomach hurts 

so back to this place i go

fuck my life

is like crack

w neva & kook 

it’s bittersweet 

but I’m gonna miss home too

& do the things i love 

these next two weeks are gonna be fantastic i can feel it. 

i love not overthinking doing the things i love without trying to impress people and just being myself. i love myself so much. 

im gonna watch all episodes of love island USA and the oc and tmr im gonna wake up early buy a book (bc i deserve it) and eat breakfast at the park 

like beta blockers 

maybe i should get on meds

im spiraling as u can tell, future me