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ok, um I have a question.
I don't understand why tf parents say shit like, you're a disappointment, or you're useless. My personal worst is: we can live without you.
But then, they question themselves about why we don't spend time with them or are barely at home.
Ive been called so many things by my parents, and im sure most of them, if I said them out loud, would worry the people that care for me.
They don't want me to be with them, but when im not, they get mad at me.
I just don't get it.
This really bothers me, and it affects my everyday life.
Being called "slut" or "whore" by a stranger bc of the way you dress hurts, but being called that by your dad... it just hits different.
Monster, whore, idiot, selfish, useless, piece of shit, asshole...
I don't like it. I hate it. It makes me cry tears of self hate. Why am I not good enough? Why do I have to seek love from my boyfriend, my friends or even my fucking teachers?
Im sorry, I just had to vent. I don't want to keep crying. Im so deeply sorry.