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It’s uncomfortable to talk about really, he can sit here and defend his friends all he wants but there really wasn’t much to defend. The outsiders of their friendship already had a distinct image of them plastered in their minds, it was hard to describe to people the dynamics that they used to have, before everything crashed down. Part of Maverick feels bad about it, and another part of him wishes the pieces kept crumbling and people saw what actually goes on in their head. With a sigh, he looks down at his hands, anxiously fiddling with them. “Nathan cared. At some point. I know, hard to believe. That at some point, Nathan Prescott gave a shit about someone that wasn’t himself ( … ) things changed after my 16th birthday, it just feels like he went off the deep end or he was teetering over the edge. He wouldn’t let me get close.” It’s all he says about Nathan, ignoring the comment about the deep, psychological problems because he knows, Maverick knows in the back of his mind on how bad Nathan has gotten. “Victoria also cares. Out of the two of them, she cares the most. You can believe me but she has a soul; yeah, she’s an utter bitch sometimes but ( … ) she was the only one that would open the door for me at 3 in the morning. Would let me talk her ear off and let me sleep.” His experiences with his friends are vastly different from those that he currently surrounds them with, nostalgia clouds his brain, hope keeps him around; hopeful that they will change their ways. Mav takes a shuddery breath at the memories, reaching at the collar of his shirt to get more air. “I— I said enough, Warren. I’m— I’m just going to ( … ) go.” His chest tightens, curls around his lungs like an iron fist as he gets up to stand on unsteady legs. His flight and fight reaction is kicking in, and his current reaction is to run. “I’m real sorry about— everything.”