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Hey there:)
I'm pretty sure no one reads this stuff but I have been getting notifications of other people posting stuff so idk. Basically I wanted to get some stuff off my chest and authors notes seem annoying.
I haven't been writing a lot - again - and it really annoys me because I do want to write. In a perfect world I'd like to make being an author my job but that's probably not going to happen, especially if I write like I do right now.
The biggest problem is self doubt I guess. I start projects all the time as you probably noticed if you follow me. I get really exited and have a concept and everything and when I've actually written a bit I immediately think it's trash. Which is probably okay, considering it's a first draft and all but still... I loose motivation.
Then there's the language thing. It's become more comfortable for me to write in english but that's not my first language. I live in Germany and rarely get to speak english. Because of that I don't know how good my english actually is. It's not bad I guess but I don't really have the best reference on how actual people talk. And I'm worried that my grammar sucks but I can't really control that.
I also don't know what the people following me expect (if you want to tell me, that'd be awesome). Obviously I want to do what I want to but I also want someone out there to like it. Believe it or not 135 followers is a lot for me, especially since most of the people following me here only know my writing and not me which is weird... So I do wonder what you guys are here for.
This wasn't meant to come across as me being a whiny bitch, if anything I wanted to put this out there and then get over it to write.
In other news I'm officially an adult as of today so maybe I'll get my shit together sometime soon :)