I wish...
I saw you lying there,
I saw you fading there,
No light, eyes fixed,
No conscious, body cold as ice.
They brought you back from death,
They saved you from death,
You saw the angel though,
Your eyes were fixed on it.
I couldn't control the tears,
They fell while I tried to held them in.
So many things I wish to tell,
So many untold forgiveness.
My cold act melted as these tears fell,
My heart broke as you stayed motionless.
All in blur, they thought of my tears an act,
It wasn't.
Guilt, guilt, guilt,
Alive I'm tortured by guilt.
My strong attitude a mere pretence,
My cold heart being just an act.
We talked yesterday after years
You were fine giving advises.
You were fine talking few hours ago
You were fine fine fine.
Understanding, not everyone's cup of tea,
My feelings, incomprehensible.
Rage, rage, rage,
For my insensitivity,I blame my anger.
You being harmed shall always haunt me,
You, if gone will kill me alive,
For I've said things I never should,
For I wished for your death,
But I never ever meant it...