I'm alexyss, the girl who tries hard to hide her emotions, the girl who wants to wear a real smile not a fake one. I have 7 sisters and one brother. I'm the oldest out of nine kids. I read and write. I want to be happy all the time....actually happy not the fake I've been pulling off so well. yes I cry, yes in front of people, yes I feel weak and yes I wish I was stronger than I appear.