𝐉𝐎𝐋𝐋𝐈 𝐀𝐒𝐒𝐔𝐌𝐏𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍 ᥫ᭡.

Frirenddd

my god, I’m so lonely. 

accidentally ft my aunt and to my surprise she actually picked up smh

I don’t want friends. I don’t need friends. and I don’t care to be liked specially not my by folks nowadays 

I’m just gon make my lil readings and focus on editing my books. thats my world

I’m conciously just keeping my distance because that world has showned me it either doesn’t want me or doesn’t appreciate me 

like part of me is okay with disassociating to the point where I no longer understand society, conciously can no longer communicate with them and just playing the role like I’m dialectic or on some sort of spectrum just so I don’t have to be bothered or relive certain disappointments anymore 

like my perception has gotten so bad that even if I get what I need I’m not even sure I’d care enough to play that game that is keep society round because I’m just so disappointed of how I’ve been treated and arranged for so long 

I’m so sick, all these ppl claiming they understand me but lacking communication has tooken a toll on my foresight and mental health 
          
          I hate it sm
          I knew from the beginning that they weren’t true w me and I wish I would’ve just trusted my instincts and not cared from the beginning 
          
          now I feel like I’m in deeper than I’m supposed to be 

my opinions aren’t for her to know and her opinions aren’t for me to gaf