h-elianthus-

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this is just me spewing thoughts because i don’t really know how to let it out another way… if you decide to read tw // depression and mentions of sh
          	
          	i hit 350 days free from sh and i’m so proud of myself, but i’m also so fucking scared of ruining how far i’ve come. i felt fine for so long and i literally will be a year clean in 15 days so why am i so afraid?
          	i know i’m getting more depressed as the days go on too and i don’t know how to tell my mom something’s wrong again. i know watching my grandparents slowly die is a big part of it, but it just feels so hopeless lately. i just want someone to tell me i’m ok and that everything will work out because it REALLY doesn’t feel like it’s going to be ok anymore

1n-c0gn1to

@h-elianthus- yes ofc! i love youuu please let me know if you need anything 
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h-elianthus-

@frappe-zz ❤️❤️❤️i love you omg thank you
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1n-c0gn1to

@h-elianthus- 
          	  
          	  hi bb! i haven't been on wattpad for a while so im just seeing this
          	  
          	  im really sorry you are going through that. 
          	  i can't say things will be okay soon because i don't know. it might take months to recover, maybe even years. who knows?
          	  what i do know is that you're very strong. 350 days free? that is literally amazing. 
          	  im very proud of you. not everyone has the ability to do that.
          	  
          	  i know that you can get through this. things will get better, all it takes is time. 
          	  go talk to your mom, or anyone close to you. do what makes you feel better with the time you have. you got this love ❤️ be patient with yourself okay?
          	  
          	  i am right here. you can talk to me whenever. ilysm please stay safe <3
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1n-c0gn1to

OMG HI LOVE!! HOW HAVE YOU BEEN??
          i was listening to my playlist on shuffle and take my breath away literally just started playing and i immediately thought of you HAHA
          
          i hope you are doing better!! i love you sm muah muah literally you're amazing UGH (i love ur theme btw its rlly sexy HEHE)

h-elianthus-

OMG IM GOOD HOW ARE YOU??? 
            i miss u  :( ily!!
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destinlcves

Read it all. I mean it. If you were killed, I wouldn’t be at your funeral. I would be in jail for killing the person who killed you. We are true friends We ride together, we die together. Send this to everybody you care about, including me, if you care. See how many times you get this. I want you to know you are an amazing friend, til death and forever. If I don’t get this back, I understand. Once you read this letter, you must send it to 15 people. Including me if you want. If you get at least 3 back, you are loved. Nobody knows how important something is until they lose it. Tonight, (12:00 pm) the person you love will realise they love you. Then at 1:00 pm to 2:00 pm, get ready for the shock of your life. If you break this chain, you will have bad luck. Send this to 15 people you truly care about, if not, you will turn ugly in one year.

h-elianthus-

this message may be offensive
this is just me spewing thoughts because i don’t really know how to let it out another way… if you decide to read tw // depression and mentions of sh
          
          i hit 350 days free from sh and i’m so proud of myself, but i’m also so fucking scared of ruining how far i’ve come. i felt fine for so long and i literally will be a year clean in 15 days so why am i so afraid?
          i know i’m getting more depressed as the days go on too and i don’t know how to tell my mom something’s wrong again. i know watching my grandparents slowly die is a big part of it, but it just feels so hopeless lately. i just want someone to tell me i’m ok and that everything will work out because it REALLY doesn’t feel like it’s going to be ok anymore

1n-c0gn1to

@h-elianthus- yes ofc! i love youuu please let me know if you need anything 
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h-elianthus-

@frappe-zz ❤️❤️❤️i love you omg thank you
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1n-c0gn1to

@h-elianthus- 
            
            hi bb! i haven't been on wattpad for a while so im just seeing this
            
            im really sorry you are going through that. 
            i can't say things will be okay soon because i don't know. it might take months to recover, maybe even years. who knows?
            what i do know is that you're very strong. 350 days free? that is literally amazing. 
            im very proud of you. not everyone has the ability to do that.
            
            i know that you can get through this. things will get better, all it takes is time. 
            go talk to your mom, or anyone close to you. do what makes you feel better with the time you have. you got this love ❤️ be patient with yourself okay?
            
            i am right here. you can talk to me whenever. ilysm please stay safe <3
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h-elianthus-

i’m just going to use this as a chance to check in on all of my beautiful followers. 
          
          how are all of you? and i want honest answers, not just “i’m good” when you’re really not. 
          if that means instead of replying to this message, that you pm me, then so be it, i will answer every single one of those messages. 
          
          i love you all! have a wonderful week, drink water, get something to eat, get well rested, and never stop loving. ❤️

h-elianthus-

@frappe-zz -)) if you ever need anything let me know! ❤️
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1n-c0gn1to

@h-elianthus- 
            
            thank you!! i really needed to share that with someone <33 
            you've helped a ton, i love you!!
            and yesss when i find the time i will show you all the stuff i bought :D
            
            
            
            
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h-elianthus-

@frappe-zz -)) omg you’ll do amazing! don’t even stress about not having as many people in your life because if they can lose you over the summer, they weren’t worth it anyways! 
            and yay that’s so exciting! i want picturessss
            i am doing well! i love you! talk to you soon bestie ❤️❤️❤️
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h-elianthus-

h-elianthus-

@i-rob-maybanks girl i’m trying ☠️
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