offezo

after jungwon's said, now im not an engene because it isn't feeling same.

offezo

@kimpetras yeni fanchante alismami, soylememi beklemesinler bi o eglencesi vardi icine sictilar grup aceini kaybetti artik tadi da olmaz o kadar sert konusmasi da kiriciydi heeseungin gelmeyecegini bastan biliyodum zaten ama enha 6 demek icimden gelmiyo mutlu olcagim bi fandom degil artik
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kimpetras

ya bence bi bakima jungwon da hakli. belki hee gercekten isteyerek gruptan cikmistir cunku solosunun konseptine bakinca enha ile pek de uyusmayan bi konsept. belki de uyeleri seviyordu ama grup konseptindeb nefret ediyodu bilemjyom bir sürü teori uretmek istiyorum ama jungwon da lider olarak yapmasi gereken seyi yaptı. enha ne kadar istenesek de suan resmi olarak 6 uye ve artik oyle devam edicek. bizim enhypen is 7 yazmamiz hicbi anlam ifade etmiyo cunku hee gruba geri gelmeyecek yani kendi adi sarkilari fandomu var bi sure sonra tek basina turnelere cikacak yani artik onu enhypen uyesi heeseung diye degil solo idol evan diye kafamizda yeniden olusturmamuz gerekiyo. kisacasi ben jungwonun soylediginde yanlış bisey goremedim :((
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kimpetras

i think the hardest part is realizing the world keeps moving even after something important to you disappears.
          
          people online talk about departures like they’re temporary trends. after a few weeks, everyone slowly moves on, new photos come out, new songs release, new conversations start. but for some fans, it doesn’t really leave that easily.
          
          i don’t think you’ll ever truly understand how deeply you became part of some people’s lives.
          
          there are songs i can’t listen to normally anymore because ur voice comes in and suddenly everything hurts again. there are performances i used to replay every night that i now avoid because they remind me too much of a version of things that no longer exists.
          
          and maybe that sounds dramatic. but when you support someone for years, they quietly become part of your routine, your comfort, your happiest moments. without noticing, i connected certain memories, certain feelings, even certain versions of myself to enhypen as seven.
          
          especially you.

kimpetras

fever era still feels frozen in time to me. remember watching those stages and genuinely thinking, “how can one person shine like this?” you looked untouchable on stage, like someone who was exactly where they were meant to be. that’s why losing you from the group felt so impossible to accept.
            
            i think what hurts most is knowing there will never be another moment exactly like before. no new ot7 photos. no new stages with all of u together. bo future memories added onto the old ones.
            
            just memories now.
            
            and memories are cruel sometimes, because they stay even when everything else changes.
            
            but despite how painful this was, i don’t regret becoming your fan for even a second. if anything, i think it made me realize how powerful music and people can be. you comforted people without even knowing their names. you made strangers feel understood just through your voice alone.
            
            that kind of impact doesn’t disappear.
            
            so even if things changed, even if the future looks unfamiliar now, a part of me will probably always wait for your voice in every enhypen song out of habit.
            
            thank you for being someone i could admire during important years of my life.
            
            and thank you for making people feel less alone, even from far away.
            
            i hope one day this sadness becomes something softer. something warm instead of painful.
            
            but rn i just miss u,,
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