hjpsstarr

i need SOMETHING to take my mind of things 
          	
          	so i’m re starting chasing stars 
          	
          	love y’all

hjpsstarr

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i have some bad news. 
          
          It was Monday evening, i was showering ready for when i went back to school Tuesday. I suddenly felt a lump on my chest that didn’t feel normal at all, i called my mum up right away, and she agreed that it wasn’t normal. 
          
          She said she’d book me in for a doctors appointment, and that was that. I went to school Tuesday, obviously told my closest friends about it because i tell them everything, and kinda just laughed it off. 
          
          I had my appointment today, during School, the doctor checked it and basically said there’s nothing they can do. Bullshit btw. Told me and my mum that we should wait a whole month to see if anything’s changed and only then will they do a scan to see what’s wrong. 
          
          What got me though, was the questions. She started asking me things like if i knew what cancer was, and if breast cancer runs in my family. We don’t really know if it does mainly because my mum doesn’t really talk to her family. That’s when my anxiety settled in, and i know my parents are worried. I can tell. 
          
          When my dad found out, he told my mum he would research about it, and basically that’s all we can do. I have to monitor it for a month, to see if anything changes or if it goes away. But i can’t help, but have an awful feeling in my stomach. 
          
          I’m gonna be so for real, never felt so scared for something in all my life. And it’s so messed up that the doctor would ask such questions, then leave me for a WHOLE MONTH with that thought of ‘is it cancer?’ in a FIFTHTEEN year olds head. like.

-arcticmcnkeys

@hjpsstarr oh ml, i'm so sorry. i'll pray for you, let's hope it's not <3
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brokencd-

oh angel i am sending you love and hoping that it's all okay, i can't imagine how that must feel <\3
            update us when you feel ready to share mwah
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carrotcake_fangirl

That’s absolutely awful in the doctor’s part. I’m so sorry you have to go through this, and I hope everything gets better for you. I would suggest getting a second, even third opinion or however many it takes because waiting a month is seriously dangerous if it really is cancer. I truly hope it isn’t and I’m praying for you <3
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hjpsstarr

got hogwarts legacy for christmas from my brother, i’m obsessed with it, it’s so good omgshhh

HermioneJackson73

@hjpsstarr ong yes i’m obsessed with that game (i always end up rage quitting tho)
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Spr_Charlie

@hjpsstarr  Omg yes!!! Such a good game ahhhhh
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