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Hey guys! So, as a lot of you know, I absolutely love writing and do it all the time. As shocking as it might seem, especially since I try to update once a da, I actually don't post about 75% of what I write. I have tons of drafts, unfinished projects, and completed books (mostly Stray Kids fanfiction) that I haven't posted simply because... I just didn't feel ready.
          
          A lot of my writing and the things my characters struggle with are things I project from my own life as a way to decompress and cope (because therapy is too freaking expensive, let’s be real). That being said, I’m happy to announce that I’m finally in the process of publishing a LOT of my hidden writing over the next couple of days! My goal is to stay on track and update everything regularly.
          
          The next few books I’m releasing this week follow a small "series" of Stray Kids x Reader stories featuring different tropes. (The books don't actually connect or relate to each other, that’s just what I’m calling it!). Some of the plots might seem a bit similar to things I’ve posted before—I just love certain plot outlines and can't let them go—but I promise they are completely different stories and I'm trying to keep things creative!
          
          So yeah! If it looks like I’m updating like crazy and publishing a ton at once, I’m literally just copying and pasting from Google Docs or my notes app, then polishing them up.
          
          Enjoy the new stories! I would really appreciate it if you could spread the word to all of our fellow STAY friends. Wishing you all so much love! <3

my head hurts so bad right now, and honestly, i don't even know why i'm posting this. probably not a lot of people are going to read it, and i'm not really expecting anyone to. i think i just needed somewhere to put these thoughts instead of keeping them trapped in my head. maybe if someone else can see them, i'll stop feeling like i'm going crazy. i've been in a really weird state these past few days. it's hard to explain, but i just feel... numb. and that scares me. like literally, today i did not go through and edit a single chapter that i posted. i just locked in, rote a bunch of random ords and kinda hoped it made sense. some of you know i've struggled a lot with my mental health in the past. there were points in my life where things got really dark, and i worked so hard to pull myself out of that. the last thing i want is to end up back there again.
          i actually deal with seasonal depression, which is kind of ironic because most people get it during the winter. for me, it's the summer that hits hardest. i thrive on structure. i need school, classes, routines, deadlinee. ig something to ground me. when all of that suddenly disappears, i end up feeling kind of lost. lately i've also had this constant feeling that i'm annoying everyone around me. logically, i know that's probably not true, but my brain has been really loud about it lately. i don't know. maybe none of this made any sense. maybe i'm just rambling. feel free to ask any questions, i literally could care less about keeping things private lol. if you made it this far, thanks for reading. and if you've been feeling a little lost too, i hope things get lighter for both of us soon. <3

i feel so single after all the romantic content i've posted today...

@MissAlanious (and to all my amazing readers ❤️)
          
          Oh my gosh, thank you so much for that beautiful reminder, it actually made me tear up a little. T0T I’m so sorry I’ve lowkey been a ghost and haven't posted anything for over a month now!
          
          Life has just been an absolute rollercoaster lately. School was ending, so I was completely buried under finals, and on top of that, there’s been a ton of real-life drama and things changing so fast that my anxiety honestly went through the roof. I just didn't have the mental capacity to face the internet for a minute.
          
          But I promise I haven't abandoned you guys! I’ve actually been writing in my free time whenever I could, and I have a couple of chapters ready. I just haven't had the energy or the headspace to edit and publish them yet. Now that things are settling down, I'm planning to get those updated and posted for you all so soon.
          
          Thank you all for being the most patient, supportive, and understanding readers ever. You have no idea how much your kind words mean to me when things get heavy. Love you guys so much! x Let me know what you guys think about the upcoming chapters! ❤️✨

HELLO MY LOVELY HUMANS.
          
          So um… funny story (not funny actually but we’re pretending it is so I don’t cry).
          
          First of all I’m really sorry I haven’t been posting. My story files decided to absolutely BETRAY me. Some chapters got mixed up, some didn’t save, and now the timeline looks like it was organized by a child with a caffeine addiction(not a description of me, trust, trust). I tried fixing it and now my brain feels like scrambled eggs.
          
          And it actually made me really sad because I love this story so much and I worked really hard on it, so losing parts of it was like… emotional damage.
          
          HOWEVER.
          
          While my brain was spiraling I had a little ✨idea✨.
          
          I started writing a sort of sequel/continuation thing for The One He Thought He Lost. It takes place after Felix and Y/N are already married and in college while the guys start enlisting. It’s based on stuff that happened in the original story AND some things from the chapters that disappeared into the void that you guys sadly may never see 
          
          So it’s basically the same universe and storyline vibes… just continuing their life with college chaos, married life, special enlistment, MAYBE A CHILD??? emotional moments, probably some crying, probably some stupidity, you know… the usual.
          
          Its not copyright if I wrote the original story… and then I write more of the same story…right??? Or am I plagiarizing myself??? Am I about to sue myself??? Someone stop me.
          
          ANYWAY.
          
          Would you guys actually want to read this?? And should I start posting it while I’m writing it?? Because part of me really wants to keep this story going and I miss writing it so much.
          
          Let me know because I’m sitting here staring at my keyboard like ️️

Hey girl! How are you? I just read about you’re depression and I feel so sorry for you I also heard that you’re ending you’re Rumi and Jinu fanfic which I’m so sad about cause Rumi and Jinu hadn’t met their baby and stuff but I also get it cause you’re going through a really hard time right now and I respect you’re opinion in this
          
          But may I ask oneeeee little thing? How do you get your stories to be so popularrr? 

Does anyone know what happened to @ambrosious231?

Chat my notifications have been so dry T-T

MERRY CHRISTMAS/NEW YEAR, TO EVERYONE ALL AROUND THE WORLD!!! <3

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