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You are such a beautiful person. You have a wonderful heart and a brave soul. You’re crazy talented. I know you might feel tired and alone but you are loved, you matter and you are so much more important than you think you are. You don’t deserve to feel as awful as you do right now. It may seem never ending or inescapable but you are not alone. You deserve to be happy, and have a life you want —surrounded by people who love and care about you. You deserve all this and so much more. Please don’t give up. Please. You deserve to see what the future has planned for you. What you feel right now is not forever —it is not the end. Please don’t give up. 
          
          Please reach out to someone you love or a professional or, if you want to talk to a stranger on the Internet, I am here. You have such a beautiful heart, it comes across in your writing. The world is better with you in it. You are making a difference in people’s lives. 
          
          I know I’m a stranger, but I feel for you and you are important to me and it matters that you get through this. 

Dude please don’t hurt yourself 

if i were to delete my two fics, would anyone care? 
          
          i hate to ask a dumb question like that but i genuinely just hate both my fics and every time someone new reads it, it pains me because my writing is just stupid lmao. maybe it's a pride thing or whatever but i'm just not fond of being known for being a bad writer. maybe i'm overthinking. it's literally 2am so i'm tired but i've been thinking about this for a while. i still have a new fic that i want to write - i've just been taking my time with developing it before i write something dumb like i have been doing lately. but when it comes to my two published fics, i feel like they've both been driven into the ground. especially "safety" lmao. idk. 
          
          okay i have nothing more to say lmao but yeah we'll see where this goes i guess

thank you so much for 1k votes on complex desires <3 
          i love and appreciate y'all so much

howdy y'all :) chapter 15 of "complex desires" is up now <3

hi all :) just thought i’d let you know that i finally updated “complex desires” if you wanna check it out.
          
          nyah <3

howdy y’all - sorry for being M.I.A. for the billionth time. i’m just here to say thank you to those of you who have checked on me. i’m perfectly fine <3 i’m REALLY here to say THANK YOU SO MUCH for 900 votes on “complex desires.” this is honestly a huge accomplishment to me even if that’s not a lot of votes. i am so grateful for the support. also, i think i’ll be updating soon? i really am working on the newest chapter and just don’t want it to suck since it’s been months since i’ve updated. it should definitely be out soon. thanks for your patience. 
          
          i love youuu. 

Hey how are you doing

thank you for 300 followers! i love y’all <3 after finals this week i think i’ll be able to continue writing so yay

so i’ve been having an 
          unusually amazing day, and
          i’m pretty sure it’s because the sun was out. 
          call me crazy, but gloomy weather 
          is honestly so 
          depressing, 
          even though
          i love the rain. 
          so anyways, i’m writing this because
          many of you have reached out. and
          yes, i am so grateful. i honestly can’t think
          of the proper way to thank you guys. 
          no one in this world has ever made me feel
          like i mattered, so to receive messages from all of
          you to see if i was
          okay has made me realize that you random
          people on the internet are actually
          the best family 
          i could ask for. 
          of course, that was my
          numbingly long way of saying i love you. 
          
          please, PLEASE take care of yourself. drink water. not just a sip - at least a bottle. eat a meal. or two. or three. get some rest. 
          
          also, i’m manifesting that you guys get to meet your favorite cast member in the near future. 
          
          nyah <3