httpstaemin

            WE ALL SEE YOU BOBBY. MY MAB FOUND HIS GIRL. as he should tho :))

httpstaemin

            first day of school was today and not even into the third hour was i having an anxiety attack over school <3. they expect someone with social anxiety to talk on class and she's the only teacher I've had yet to force me to. tbh im just gonna let her fail me on this assignment cuz there ain't no way in hell imma make a video of myself for everyone to watch, i might as well puke my guts out than do that 

httpstaemin

           yall ever want to trust that you're dad will change but deep down you know he won't. he'll always be the shitty man he was years ago, but i forgive him cuz of how he was raised. i hate how i'll excuse every little thing he did wrong just because of how he was raised. the things he has done and what i've had to witness is so upsetting to me, but he's the only dad i have. deep down i want to be able to get pass all of the things that happened to me when i was younger because of him, but then again i don't wanna become vulnerable like that and have him or someone else hurt me :/. anyways thanks for listening to my thoughts aha

xlovedrug

@httpstaemin oh- well, with my short experience with my father who passed away he was a good man. but everyone is different and you'll grow from this, you'll learn that you don't need someone to make you feel loved, living for yourself and loving yourself should be your life goal, an absent father or shitty father shouldn't change that, sometimes vulnerability is good, but being a vulnerable source to a point where you can get hurt isn't
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