Um hello

ye im done i dont want to read more notifications, its long af

Reading all my notifications that's over 99+ prob won't finish it but..

Havent been online for months cuz i got caught reading smuts and ill probably won't be online again after i post this

Reading smut after my friend unfriended me  ಥ‿ಥ

just lost another friend ಥ‿ಥ and its because of me thats why me and him arent friends anymore (༎ຶ ෴ ༎ຶ)

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          I also dream about akutagawa (dead panel (༎ຶ ෴ ༎ຶ)

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          STOP SHOWING ME THAT ONE AKUTAGAWA PANEL AAA GERHAYSHS STOP THE FVCK UP STOP SHOWING IT IN MY FYP OR ANY APP IN MY PHONE well i have it screenshoted in gallery but I DONT GO THERE SO ITS FINE BUT IN TIKTOK OR TWITTER OR YT NO GOODBYE I HATE THIS i mean i like angst BUT NOT WITH AKUTAGAWA jsywywJAHAHHWj its been months i haven't left this akutagawa phase is that the right spelling of "phase" idk hswurwujaajkwh

lmao i finally remember what i dream about earlier so i was in like road theres building or something there's bench and trees i was with atsushi akutagawa is there too, me and atsushi are talking about something i forgot what were talking about and akutagawa is rolling his eyes then were walking towards the bench it can only fit 2 people and me and atsushi sit there akutagawa is standing beside atsushi cuz the bench doesn't have enough space then yeah yeah talking talking.
          
          After that we saw dazai and chuuya too we say hello and blah blah they go to like restaurant or fast food thingy i just don't remember the name of it, then akutagawa left he go to buy something idk what he's gonna buy.
          
          few minutes later theres this guy come up to us i think he likes atsushi lmao then that man pushed atsushi to the bench and u told the man to leave, akutagawa came back and he punched the man on the face the man runs while crying lmao
          
          then i woke up bc my neighbor is so loud shes screaming cuz her dogs are barking so loud.

this is weird i dreamt about im in a motorcycle and its automatic and it has no like the front part theres nothing on there idk what its called so its hard to explain then my mom is also there but different motorcycle its not automatic she's driving it and my sister is also there then we drive drive then theres a truck it hit me but nothing happens then yeah drive drive again 
          
          then we are like in a white room or were just staying there?? many people are also there, theres 6 beds 3 at top 3 at the bottom it's on a wood thingy and its so small but it fit perfectly uh?? then theres cabinet behind the pillow part we grab food eat eat eat theres also ice cream (also the food isn't for everyone the girl that i think is my classmate just gave us some) but i didn't get the ice cream cuz yeah idk
          
          then out of nowhere were in the airplane the cabinet is still there tho the airplane is soooo big it barely has seats it only has 10 i think or 7 then i heard some voice i dont remember it tho and then the airplane flooded?? how we didn't even crash to an ocean or something?? im still eating that time tho everyone is eating there's some tomato sauce on their faces.
          
          Then we got teleported to an ocean?? my mom is on a wood thingy i don't remember what its called, i didn't have anything so i just swim and someone said "wala kang mapupuntahan pagnagswimming ka lang aabutin ka ng ilang linggo" 
          
          i think this is the eng version of what they said: "u cant go anywhere if your just swimming it will take you few weeks"

I just saw akutagawa siblings angst and im very sad rn and what made it worse is i accidentally click refresh and i cant find it ಥ‿ಥ and... !!MANGA SPOILERS!! (and btw i like angst, i like it when i cry)
          
          
          
          
          
          as i was saying while i saw that i was listening to "watching him fade away" ಥ‿ಥ that song reminds me of shin soukoku.
          
          lyrics: "i haven't got the guts to call him up, walk around as you never cared in the fìrst place but if you never call you'll end up stuck *sounds* thought another chance to tell him right to his face...even tho we barely know each other it still hurts watching him fade away" ಥ‿ಥ akutagawa is my favorite character idk why