it’s been two days since the announcement, and the sadness still hasn’t left me. i find myself crying over and over, it just hurts that much. mark leaving nct was something i never expected, something that never even crossed my mind. it felt impossible, like a reality i never had to prepare for.
at first, i’ll admit my feelings were a bit selfish. i didn’t want things to change, didn’t want to let go. but as i read his words again and again, i slowly began to understand. this decision is for him. for his growth, his happiness, and the life he wants to live. and as much as it hurts, i know the best thing we can give him now is our respect and unwavering support, just like how he gave us his everything for the past 10 years.
we don’t know when or where we’ll see him again, and that uncertainty aches. but i hold on to the thought that as long as he’s happy, truly happy with the path he chooses, then maybe one day this pain in my heart will turn into something softer; something like quiet gratitude.
mark, you will always be a part of my youth. a chapter of my life i’ll forever treasure. growing up alongside you has been such a beautiful and unforgettable journey. i’ll always be proud to say that i am your fan.
this time, we’ll let you go, not because we want to lose you, but because we want to see you grow, to see you shine even brighter as mark, or as minhyung, in whatever path you take.
i can only imagine how proud little minhyung would be of everything you’ve accomplished, of how far you’ve come, and of the person you’ve become. and i hope you’re proud of yourself too.
until the day we meet again, mark, please take care of yourself and follow your heart. i’ll still be here, just like always; quietly, sincerely, endlessly rooting for you. i love you.
