— and then I asked him, “Will you be fine if I’m gone?”
He looked at me, emphasizing the anger in his eyes.
“I don’t know,” He said and looked away from me.
I smiled. “I’m hurting you,” I whispered. He let out a long sigh before looking at me. “So do I.” My heart is ripping apart but I still managed to smile.
I walked towards him so I could see his face clearly. This face that I loved so much. Those eyes that were full of bloodlust.
I pursed my lips before talking, “I know what I did really hurt you,” I stuttered.
“The worst thing that I did was what I did to you, I know that.” Tears fell from my eyes, down to my cheeks. I held his left cheek and I shivered down my spine. I smiled bitterly whilst looking into his eyes.
“Please do not be grumpy anymore,” I let out a small chuckle while crying. I still put a smile on my face, even though it really hurts me seeing him like that.
I just want this pain to stop. I just want… to free himself from hell.
I don’t want to hurt him anymore, I can’t afford to see him being miserable.
This is all my fault.
“I don’t want to hurt you anymore.. I.. really love you. I hope you’ll be happy. I hope you find someone who will not hurt the way I hurt you. Please.. forget everything about me..” I bit my lip to stop myself from crying hard.
“I.. want to see you smile again.. Take care of yourself, okay?” I felt numb. “I wish I could take all the pain in your heart.” I looked down as I took a step away from him.
“Please do what I say,” I smiled. "This is also for you," I said.
