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A Hitchhiker’s Guide to the Galaxy:  .  .  Enter 守護神 星子,     guilty of swallowing the Sun in the afternoon!           [      ᴬn independent and private portrayal of Hoshiko Shugoshin,   Savior of the Stars and Humanity.     written by the Girl of the Month.      ]           a personal love letter to LOOΠΔ and their discography as well as their lore.

i thought i had what it takes to play in the big leagues before you came along. my reputation’s smeared for good. 

*      Whatever they said about in-yun in past lives

Heaven is a Home . . .  ♡ ￣ (Wherever I’m with you) / @sympathyis, ͟ ͟ ͟ : !!! o_O .. i’ve been thinking about this for a while now too, if i’m being honest.. (｡・//ε//・｡)   [muffled words and a giddy giggle escapes eun-ae’s mouth as she chews thoughtfully on a chocolate muffin gifted to her by tiān zhēn. a sheepish grin comes across her face as she looks up at tiān zhēn, eyes as bright as the sun. eun-ae doesn’t say it, but she thinks ren looks like an angel where she stands— but when doesn’t eun-ae think tiān zhēn is beautiful? she takes a moment to chew her food before she speaks, choosing her words carefully.] i’d like to think we found each other at the same time, you know? like our paths were always meant to align from the start and that the world was just waiting for the right time for us to meet. . i think everything happens for a reason, which is why i’d like to believe that us finding each other wasn’t just a matter of coincidence but rather. . . fate.

if i found you or if you found me..   ՞ ◞ ◟՞

it’s been just you and i for a while now—

aurelia clutches at her side as she makes an attempt to rise from her spot.
            a wince runs past her lips and her face contorts into a look of pain. thor tries to come to her side to help her, but she refuses, shaking her head. arms wobble shakily, but eventually she manages to push herself up. she makes a note to repay thor for all he’s done for her once she can rise again. she glances down at the bandages thor has put over her wounds and she sees dark red splotches of blood peeking through the white
            cloth. through shaky breaths, she speaks quietly.
            
              •   •   •     ༊          ᴿᴬ   *    ᔆᴼᴸ       〞    
                            〞 BUT WHEN IS S͟O͟O͟N͟?͟ I CANNOT AFFORD TO WAIT, NOT NOW (...) THERE’S STILL A BATTLE TO WIN, PEOPLE I NEED TO SAVE. I CANNOT LET ANOTHER PERSON DIE, THOR. I CAN’T.   〞

꒰ ა    C⃨ ᴴᴼᔆᴱᴺ     ᴮʸ        S⃨ ᵁᴺ   ໒ ꒱     
            ❮  @AESIRHEIR  ❯   ☼    w⃨e⃨  ⨍ind  
            ourselves          solaris  |  aurelia.                     
                            c⃨ᵒⁿˢᵘᵐᵉᵈ    ⅋      ˡᵒˢᵗ‧       
            ───────────────
            ¹     ᵖʳᵒᵖʰᵉᵗ ᵍⁱʳˡ      •   ⭒   •      ᵃᵘʳᵉˡⁱᵃ ʸᵘⁿ | ˢᵒˡᵃʳⁱˢ
            as hot as the sun gnaws at my side like vultures to a dead body in the sahara desert, coursing through my veins. the battle’s long done by now, with nothing left but scars and destruction left behind as evidence. in my ear, ra tells me i am lucky to have been saved by the æsir with the injuries i received, but deep down i ask myself, “am i t͟r͟u͟l͟y͟ grateful to have survived this? is this what i should be grateful for in my life? bloodshed? death?” i remember every single life that’s been taken by my hands, every single pulse that’s died out in my presence, every warm touch that’s set in my horizon to never rise again, is t͟h͟a͟t͟ something i should be grateful for?     i seem to find myself with two gods from lifetimes other than my own uttering two messages in my ears: one that speaks of hope, of perseverance, sparking within me like a light of hope within the void of the night that tells you to keep living, and one of anger, one that speaks of my faults like a raging fury of fire and passion that burns away at my resolve.
            
            
            ᴹᴱᴺᵀᴬᴸ   ⟢       해,        ❨   i.   ᵃᵛᵃᵗᵃʳ  ʳᵃ.    ❩⠀
            ▀▀▀▀▀▀▀▀▀▀    HEAVY IS THE HEART THAT CHOOSES TO BEAR THE TITLE OF SOLARIS, AURELIA. AFTER ALL THESE YEARS, YOU OF ALL PEOPLE  SHOULD KNOW THAT BY NOW. YOU’VE OUGHT TO BECOME BETTER. STRONGER. ANOTHER BATTLE APPROACHES AND YET YOU SIT HERE IN YOUR OWN BLOOD MOURNING THE LIVES OF PEOPLE WHO DIED BECAUSE OF YOUR FAULTS. RISEᵎᵎ WHERE IS YOUR FIGHT﹖ YOUR RAGE﹖TELL ME, WHAT ARE YOU FIGHTING FOR﹖ IS THIS WHERE YOU GIVE UP﹖AND YOU CALL YOURSELF A “HERO”.
            
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            ⭒    ᵃᵘʳᵉˡⁱᵃ ʸᵘⁿ | ˢᵒˡᵃʳⁱˢ      (...)
            
            ❨ avatar, ra. ❩⠀ ᴬ‧ᴿ   WHAT? HAVE YOU NOTHING TO SAY? I SHOULD’VE KNOWN.

Perhaps not now,  but soon.

out on cliché rooftops overlooking sunset while practicing your serenade for who,  i wonder.    you know me, a teensy tinsy bit the jealous type. 

TRADITION IS NOT THE WORSHIP OF THE ASHES,  BUT THE PRESERVATION OF THE FIRE.          /           THE PROPHET GIRL, CHOSEN BY THE SUN, DO YOU HEAR GODS WHISPERING SILENT STARDUST WORDS?       CURSED DAUGHTER, UTTERING INSANITIES NOBODY BELIEVES.           DO YOU REGRET TAKING THE VOW?

*    미안해, meaning i'm sorry.

꒰ ა    C⃨ ᴴᴼᔆᴱᴺ     ᴮʸ        S⃨ ᵁᴺ   ໒ ꒱
            ❮  @SCINTRED  ❯   ☼    w⃨e⃨  ⨍ind
            ourselves          solaris  |  aurelia.
                            c⃨ᵒⁿˢᵘᵐᵉᵈ    ⅋      ˡᵒˢᵗ‧
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            ¹     ᵖʳᵒᵖʰᵉᵗ ᵍⁱʳˡ      •   ⭒   •       my       heart 
            ᵃᵘʳᵉˡⁱᵃ ʸᵘⁿ | ˢᵒˡᵃʳⁱˢ                    aches at the 
            sight of matthew,  each step he takes
            gnawing away at me.   i extend an 
            arm reaching out to him, but draw
             it back to my side at the sound of 
            ra’s disapproval.
            
            ᴹᴱᴺᵀᴬᴸ   ⟢       해,        ❨   i.   ᵃᵛᵃᵗᵃʳ  ʳᵃ.    ❩⠀
            ▀▀▀▀▀▀▀▀▀▀    TSK, TSK, TSK. YOUR
            HEART BLINDS YOU, AURELIA. I MADE
            YOU MY AVATAR TO PROTECT THE
             WORLD, NOT TO BE DISTRACTED
             WITH SOME LOVERS’ QUARREL.
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            ⭒    ᵃᵘʳᵉˡⁱᵃ ʸᵘⁿ | ˢᵒˡᵃʳⁱˢ   (...) why must you
            always invade my /private/ life? leave
            us, leave matt out of this, you 
            shouldn’t be here.
                                (a͟v͟a͟t͟a͟r͟,͟ ͟r͟a͟.͟)⠀ ᴬ‧ᴿ
            HAH! YOU HUMOR ME, TRULY.  YOU 
            SHOULD KNOW BETTER. YOU 
            SIGNED YOUR PRIVACY AWAY THE
            MOMENT YOU FIRST WORE THE 
            ARMORS,   YUN.
            
            ▀▀▀▀▀▀    MATTHEW NEVER FAILS
            TO CHALLENGE AURELIA IN NEW
            WAYS, THERE’S JUST SOMETHING, 
            SOMETHING ABOUT HIM THAT HAD
            ALWAYS BAFFLED AURELIA, A PART
            OF HIM THAT SHE COULD NEVER
            UNDERSTAND. MAYBE IT WAY HE
            DEVOTES HIMSELF TO GOD, OR 
            THE WAY HE DIGS HIS KNEES INTO 
            A CHURCH’S PEW, SHE’D NEVER 
            TRULY BE ABLE TO LAND HER 
            FINGER ON IT. HE LEAVES HER 
            CONFUSED; HE LEAVES HER WITH
            AN ACHING HEART. STILL, SHE 
            RETURNS TO HIM.
            
            
              •   •   •     ༊          ᴿᴬ   *    ᔆᴼᴸ       〞
                            〞 it’s not your fault, so don’t   .. don’t worry about it. 미안해, (...) just take care of yourself too, alright? promise me.    〞

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                 「  @luxlaris   ┊  m.m   」
            THERE’S   TIMES,   ᵂᴴᴱᴿᴱ  ᵀᴴᴱ  ᴸᴬᵂ     
                            ISN’T   H⅁ՈONƎ       ›  
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            ₛₜₐₜₑₘₑₙₜ    ₍ ₁ ₎            ᜰ      MATTHEW SCOFFS when aurelia speaks.  not sinners,  hah.  we all are.  maybe that was the beauty of humanity.  all the mistakes    &⃨     faults.  sometimes, it’s a hard thing to grasp that jesus himself was made of flesh the same flesh    &⃨     blood we bleed.  we all bleed, but he’s the only one who always forgives.  it’s a shame.  ❲     ᵗᵃᵏᵉ ⁿᵒᵗᵉ⠘ matthew shifts away  &⃨     aurelia’s heart races, spiking each second.   ᵉⁿᵈ ⁿᵒᵗᵉ‧    ❳     HE WANTED TO RUN AWAY FROM THIS UGLY FEELING EATING HIM UP INSIDE, he could not face the goddess within aurelia   &⃨     THE VERY GOD he prays to every night, burying his knees into cold, leather, pews.    matthew runs from the very god he cannot grasp, and also runs towards him for understanding.  what a silly game.❲     ᵗᵃᵏᵉ ⁿᵒᵗᵉ⠘ aurelia is easy to read, she’s confused,    &⃨     obviously conflicted on the next step. where should they go from here?  ᵉⁿᵈ ⁿᵒᵗᵉ‧    ❳       THE HELM that protects matthew from the elements suddenly feels too tight,     &⃨      too warm.  he needed to get away.  
            
            ₛₜₐₜₑₘₑₙₜ ₍₂₎     ᵒʳᵈᵉʳ ⁱⁿ ᶜᵒᵘʳᵗ‧    ᜰ      MATTHEW TAKES A FEW MORE STEPS BACK   ⁽ ᵗⁱᵖ, ᵗᵃᵖ ⁾     paranoia is gnawing away at his gut   &⃨     aurelia is unfortunately caught up in this ugly storm.  he would make it up to her later, matthew could promise her that. 
            
            
                      ⧼    S͟T͟A͟R͟T͟ ͟Q͟U͟O͟T͟E͟    ❛   I̲⃨ ─┈   I need to go Solaris.   Sorry,  it’s my fault  ⁽ ᵘʰᵐ ⁾  patrol is over for tonight.  Please, take care of yourself. I⃨’⃨m⃨ n⃨o⃨t⃨ s⃨u⃨r⃨e⃨ i⃨f⃨ we should talk or meet again anytime soon.  I need time,  time alone.  N⃨o⃨ e⃨r⃨e⃨s⃨ t⃨u⃨, s⃨o⃨y⃨ y⃨o⃨ .  ⁽ ⁱᵗ’ˢ ᵐᵉ, ⁿᵒᵗ ʸᵒᵘ‧ ⁾   Our regular coffee date is uhm,  off too.  (…)    It’s late.  Head home,  I’ll  (..)   I’ll walk you home.  ❜               E͟N͟D͟ ͟Q͟U͟O͟T͟E͟