reii

hi. reii again. ummm so i like still need to find out my pass for this acc. on it rn.

HI PEOPLOE THIS IS REII AND UH I KINDA MIGHTVE GOTTEN LOGGED OUT OF MY ACC BECAUSE I GOT GROUNDED AND MY MOM RESET MY PHONE AND I GOT WATTPAD BACK BUT I GOT MY PASSWORD WRONG???? ILL UPDATE U GUYS IF I GET IN

guys plsplsplsplsplspls check out my new really sad poetry book i swear you'll cry

deleted all the difference bc under pressure is taking most of my time to write 

im so evil lmfao
          (im sorry for this angst </3)

hey pookies you guys better be grateful for this my writers block has semi-ended so im currently writing chapter one of under pressure after planning it out for months

sneak peek of s2 of under pressure hehe
          
          "Alhaitham! Where are the knives?"
          "Why do you need them?"
          "To cook, obviously."
          "I'll have to watch you." 
          

i haven't eaten anything other than an entire bag of chips and 2 slices of cake and its 4 pm 

guys i lied again all the difference probably wont update until i get motivation

dont say you love me unless you love all of me. my face, my eyes, my nose, my mouth, my skin, my hair, my body, my mind, my nails, my fingers, every part of me. to love me is to love what goes on in my head, and it is unlovable even for me. you will deal with me thinking i am not good enough, my cries, my hallucinations, my hurt. it hurts because i can never truly love anybody. love is a very strong word, and i am afraid that it i love someone, i will hurt them. im delusional. i belong in a mental asylum, screaming my lungs out. i am a child of hurt. i was raised by hurt. raised by abuse, raised by the worst. "please don't say you love me" because ill break down. knowing someone truly loves me for all i am while also knowing i cant love them as much as they love me makes me break. I've been broken into pieces, and as the time passes, i try to pick them up and repair them. everytime they repair, they break once again. my heart is fragile, but i cannot hold anothers. im sorry i cant love you as i say i do.