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it's been a month
          
          a month since i opened instagram and things changed
          a month since my stomach dropped 
          a month since I've been carrying around my heavy heart
          a month since I've realised that everything is temporary 
          a month since life has lost colour 
          a month since we lost something so important 
          a month since wondering what could've been 
          a month of trying to be okay again
          a month full of finding him in small things in life
          
          a month.
          
          but what I have also realised in this month
          the value of relationships with the people around you, the importance of not holding grudges and understanding the cruelty of life and death.
          
          at the end of the day, i feel better, i feel good knowing he is watching down on me, on us.
          miss you payno <3
          

hey, I read the messages on your board--are you okay? I know Liam's passing has been so terribly hard, it has been for me too. If you need to talk you can reach out to me anytime :)

hi y'all 
          i don't know what to say to make us all feel a bit better
          there is nothing to say at this point
          it is hurting harder now that the reality of the situation is setting in and now that I see things for what they are
          
          there is this huge knot in my chest that won't go away
          I've completely lost my appetite 
          i barely slept last night
          idk what to do to make myself feel better 
          i tried listening to strip that down but i paused it before his part began 
          i haven't been able to listen to anything other than louis' music in the past two days because his voice just brings me a weird sense of peace
          
          i would really appreciate it if anyone who feels the same wants to reach out and vent about this
          he has not left my mind for a single second and this is haunting me now. 
          
          all the love,
          h.

HAPPY LARRYVERSARY TO EVERYONE CELEBRATING
          
          this fandom is the coolest bunch of people that I have come across.
          i love every single one of you  
          all the love in the world and more,
          h.

You. Are. Such. A. Great. Writer.
          Like I kid you not, you are an amazing writer, don't let anything get in your way of becoming awesome!❤️

HII GUYS
          
          I'm almost certain that no one will reply because I haven't been here in so long but HOW ARE Y'ALL???
          
          come on update me about your lives and feel free to trauma dump
          love,
          h

HIII GUYSSSS
          HAPPY LATE NEW YEAR
          OR
          LATE HAPPY NEW YEAR
          whichever is correct.
          can y'all perhaps drop down a few book recommendations (larry or not) my current tbr is:
          hunting Adeline
          and the entire twisted series
          so anything except these will work. 
          love ya'll BYE

haven't been here in sooooo long
          ik most people won't reply but how's everyone??? 
          give me life tea go on

Hi luv <3 how are you doing? 

God, how good it is to find someone from the fandom who is alive! Hello! Want to make friends? cx