isabelmarant

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isabelmarant

dear max,
          
          i miss you and i will always miss you. even if you just come back and we become friends, best friends again, i will miss you. 
          
          things changed, you changed and i did too. we grew out of our friendship, which is the saddest part for me. we didn’t argue or anything. we just stopped talking one day. i wish we never did cause i knew that you were the girl i was looking for to be my lifelong bestfriend the first day i saw you at the playground. 
          
          then few days later i met brooke. her mom and mine forced us to be friends cause i didn’t have any. we became really good friends right away. i remember thinking she’s the funniest person on earth. it’s been years and i still think she’s the funniest person i’ve ever known.
          
          the same day i met her, i met you too. she dragged me to your apartment and said “you need to meet this friend of mine, you’ll love her.” and i really did. i really loved that friend of hers. i still remember what you were wearing that day since we joked a lot about it. 
          
          then we became a trio. the greatest friend group of my life cause after we stopped talking and parted ways, i looked for you two in every friend group i was in. 
          
          i miss 2019, i miss you.
          
          i miss the polaroid pictures of us, i miss playing the guitar with you, i miss going to peoples birthday parties and making fun of them with you. i miss going to the supermarket and recording stupid videos, going to the tennis court and doing anything but playing tennis, going to the ice rink and skating, writing fanfics and dying out of laughter with you. 
          
          i still play the guitar and tennis and still figure skate but i miss doing it with you two.
          
          im glad we carved our names into the slides of the playgroung that day. even though we won’t be able to see it again.

isabelmarant

im not good at expressing my thoughts and emotions in my own language, so i wrote this a few months ago, in english. it must be okay anyway cause i know the reason you started learning this language.
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isabelmarant

you know, brooke texted me like two weeks ago. i was thinking about her a day before she did. we're still talking, and i realized i missed her more than i thought. she has new friends, and moved to a different city. apparently, she comes here once in a blue moon to see her dad. i wish to laugh with her and hug her again.
            
            im glad she texted, i wish you would do that too.
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