So, like, I'm sad a lot and I cry when I'm alone a lot, but even though I have things that can make me happy (sometimes), I don't want to be happy. I do, but I also don't. I selfishly know that I want attention, not from the way I hurt myself or the way I act, I just want a one on one friendship, and I know that that is way too much to ask for. Any suggestions as to what I should do to help me get all this negativity out?