jen

yo are you alive??? i haven't heard from you for like a year

hello gang
          
          a mixture of schoolwork and a desperation to not procrastinate has kept me from the app for a bit. i won't be active for a long, long time, but i deeply miss reading. i'm hoping to find time for this at least once a week.
          
          i currently have a 5-minute presentation on elvis due in 2 weeks, a semester-long creative writing project i haven't even started yet, a quiz on president harry truman to study for, spanish to study, etc etc
          
          i am a bit overwhelmed atm, but i'm hoping i'll settle into a routine that allows me good grades and time to read. although, i am willing to completely ignore distracting apps to keep up with school, that doesn't mean i don't get bored :(
          
          i miss y'all!
          
          i don't have much time this weekend, and i really doubt i'll have time next week, but i do plan on coming back semi-regularly,, eventually
          
          - a tired lesbian </3

i don't know how but they found me my beloved <33

i need to stop trying to reread stuff i've already read within the last 2 weeks
          
          it's just not gonna work why do i keep trying

the cishetification of jen underscore nybenny underscore:
          
          i've been listening to i wanna see some ass and beamin'
          
          roadtrip by dream is Definitely a straight song, but the gays just fuckin took it
          
          our straight song now, mf
          
          oh and i've also been listening to ohmami by chase atlantic (straight for sure), but that's old news. i have been for over a month
          
          sometimes the straights pop off i'm ngl

homecoming by green day has 5 songs in it:
          
          1. the death of saint jimmy
          2. east 12th street
          3. nobody likes you
          4. rock n roll girlfriend
          5. we're coming home again
          
          and the death of saint jimmy is the best of them, i take 0 criticism
          
          i've always loved the death of saint jimmy more; i've been obsessed with homecoming since 2017
          
          it's so good

why do some MCR songs just hit me so fucking hard
          
          gun.
          burn bright
          s/c/a/r/e/c/r/o/w
          the ghost of you
          skylines and turnstiles
          fake your death
          mama
          bulletproof heart
          
          crying . /hj

sometimes i can feel my standards skydiving when i spam-add to my reading list
          
          'well- it miGHt be good'
          
          'i don't want to read this now, but i might later¿'
          
          'i'm not interested in the subject at all, but the author's other fics were good'
          
          'i know i'm probably going to unadd this from everything less than 3 chapters in, but it's worth a try !'
          
          etc etc

when the tw list has more listed than characters in my username, i run
          
          my general rule knocks it down to roughly 3 listed triggers or less NAJZJSJSU
          
          i came to read, not be disturbed tyvm /nbh /lh

time to spam-add to my reading list again >:)