@jokerandjester0801
"Happy birthday to the person who's been with me through thick and thin - myself"
@jokerandjester0801 lmfao! That's the spirit! Next year hopefully you'll have a wall built around yourself with an alligator filled moat for your family,busters that they are!
You are not that weak, so don’t give up… maybe 2 years from now you will look at yourself proud for overcoming all…
And in the end heartbreaks… so reduce your fucking expectations…
We used to be close, but people can go
From people you know to people you don't
And what hurts the most is people can go
From people you know to people you don't...
It says, if you have everything but no heath, if you have everything but no time, if you have everything but no family then it is a huge nothing… but I kind of don’t agree with that. Isn’t that funny, that everyone around the house has some mental shit that you have to deal with. But you are the only one who actually admits it. I guess that’s why I am called crazy haha!
Breaking someone’s trust is like crumpling up a paper. You smooth it over but it is never the same.
Sometimes the worst place you can be is in your own head…
Even though I don’t feel like my age, I am a year older. I have always felt old no matter what. Maybe that was because I have been through a lot my lifetime. I passed a long, hard way. But I am glad because maybe that’s what made me who I am. Anyways, I just want to say something to my broken self. That maybe very few, special people will love you in your lifetime. Appreciate you for what you are. But I love you as well! I always will! Cause we both overcame everything together. Against everyone. We both had to be strong. Just like we need to be now. Happy birthday to me!
If you had a chance what would you change in your life? Or have you thought about leaving everything and not turning back? I am sure everyone did question these at some point in their lives. Isn’t that a ridiculous? When you truly find yourself , when you feel happy, the life just kicks you over reminding your place. Maybe just universe doesn’t let you. Or you should have screwed everyone like they did to you long time ago… The past few weeks were hell. Not just for me but my friend as well. Maybe that’s a spiritual thing . That we both draw negative. I am still questioning though. But I know there is something that relates us. Just like it did 2 years ago. And now, everyday you trying to soothe me by telling that it will pass. Me doing the same. You keep telling me to be strong and numb. Even though we both struggle the same shit. Neglect. But I know you’re much more stronger than I. Always did. Always have. And always going to be. I am thankful I have you. I don’t know if I will keep my promise but, one day everything is going to be alright. For both of us.
@jokerandjester0801 I think my mother says it best for ppl like us. We just weren't put here on this earth to be loved. God had a different purpose for us. But one day we will be rewarded for our suffering.
This is my first experience with writing. I hope you can enjoy my story.