joker

You are not that weak, so don’t give up… maybe 2 years from now you will look at yourself proud for overcoming all… 

And in the end heartbreaks… so reduce your fucking expectations…

Isn’t that ridiculous when you scared? 
          Scared of yourself. 
          Scared to hurt someone’s feelings. 
          Cuz you have a big problem in accepting yourself…

We used to be close, but people can go
          From people you know to people you don't
          And what hurts the most is people can go
          From people you know to people you don't...
          

Walking in the rain, that’s the place I belong…

It says,  if you have everything but no heath, if you have everything but no time, if you have everything but no family then it is a huge nothing… but I kind of don’t agree with that. Isn’t that funny, that everyone around the house has some mental shit that you have to deal with. But you are the only one who actually admits it. I guess that’s why I am called crazy haha!

Breaking someone’s trust is like crumpling up a paper. You smooth it over but it is never the same. 

Sometimes the worst place you can be is in your own head…

Even though I don’t feel like my age, I am a year older. I have always felt old no matter what. Maybe that was because I have been through a lot my lifetime. I passed a long, hard way. But I am glad because maybe that’s what made me who I am. Anyways, I just want to say something to my broken self. That maybe very few, special people will love you in your lifetime. Appreciate you for what you are. But I love you as well! I always will! Cause we both overcame everything together. Against everyone. We both had to be strong. Just like we need to be now. Happy birthday to me!

If you had a chance what would you change in your life? Or have you thought about leaving everything and not turning back? I am sure everyone did question these at some point in their lives. Isn’t that a ridiculous? When you truly find yourself , when you feel happy, the life just kicks you over reminding your place. Maybe just universe doesn’t let you. Or you should have screwed everyone like they did to you long time ago… The past few weeks were hell. Not just for me but my friend as well. Maybe that’s a spiritual thing . That we both draw negative. I am still questioning though. But I know there is something that relates us. Just like it did 2 years ago. And now, everyday you trying to soothe me by telling that it will pass. Me doing the same. You keep telling me to be strong and numb. Even though we both struggle the same shit. Neglect. But I know you’re much more stronger than I. Always did. Always have. And always going to be. I am thankful I have you. I don’t know if I will keep my promise but, one day everything is going to be alright. For both of us.