@julietgotdivorced
@Kath_kirishima147 follow me on ao3!!! its the same user (julietgotdivorced) idk when ill post though i have finals soon :((
@julietgotdivorced wait can u send the link to it or post it in ur bio? The search bar is only use to search up fanfics
my hands are all twitchy again >:(
no stitches again thank you jesus but i'm so so so glad it's almost winter because they have time to heal and i'm stupid for doing it on my arms again because it just irritated my old ones and now i'm in very much pain
so i may have had a teensy little relapse
@BrieJones0 honestly so real i get called emo a lot but im more alt and grunge it's nice to meet another :))
ARGHGSAHGS I DON'T WANT TO GO TO SCHOOL TODAY
i feel like utter shit right now :(
@Kath_kirishima147 omg yes i live close to the ocean (its like less than a mile away) so that's why it's so cold but it's so worth it
OMG I JUST FOUND OUT THAT I MADE MY TOP CHOICE BASEBALL TEAM FOR THE SUMMER (we don't do spring bc of high school sports and stuff) IM SO PSYCHED BUT AT THE SAME TIME I AM NOT READY LMAOO
seriously, im happy but my tendons are still healing from previous stupid things that I did and just going to the try out made me so tired bro like during practices I mostly just did some glovework and conditioning and I didn't throw much, but for try outs, I did end up throwing and playing catch and hitting and all that and it made me so sore. I have like five months to heal but I want to play spring season but i dont think Ill be able to :(((
mood swings go crazy but i just noticed that i have 69 reads :sob:
so here's some real talk i guess
things have been pretty rough from my suicide attempt a few months ago to another relapse after such a short amount of time. I try to think that i'm getting better, that things will get better. I don't want to die, at least not right now, but everything is getting worse and worse and it gets better for a little while and it goes right back down. I honestly don't know what to do anymore, and my whole life right now is basically school and wattpad like please please please i need a life-
@Kath_kirishima147 aww that sucks. i just made a secret one like two hours ago lol its okay
@julietgotdivorced Unfortunately due to my strict parents I don't have social media, but there might be an exception of me having one in a few years :)
@Kath_kirishima147 ugh i hope also if you want you can add me on discord its @ihaveabomb2000
are anybody else's notifications tweaking out or just mine???
@Kath_kirishima147 yeah that and when i log in it says i have no notifications but when i go to my profile they show up???
@BrieJones0 do u mean like the bar on top looks different when u click on notifications? same here
what's that thing called when you're doing something and you forget everything
like you don't know who you are, how to think, and what you were doing. like your mind goes blank and it feels like 20 seconds but after you remember again your friends are hella worried because they say you've been staring into space for like five minutes
@Kath_kirishima147 that's slightly concerning : crying emoji: my friends and I have started just saying that I "fall asleep" sometimes
@julietgotdivorced According to Google, it's called disassociation. I was sure that it was disassociation, but I had to google it to make sure. Thanks AI (ai is gonna take the world one day believe it!)