kaede

bir sözlük dünyaya bir romandan daha çok benziyordu, çünkü dünya tutarlı bir olay dizisi değil, algılanan darmadağınık şeylerin yığınıydı

do you also remember me once in a while and yearn for the days we used to be close?

bu yaz parama kıyıp amerikaya gidicem.  bi görelim yüksek lisans yapacağımız toprakları

Better call saul nasıl breaking badten daha güzel olabilir

kaeee

its all in my head. no worries.

meltem you slut im gonna miss you so much.

3 gün boyunca yatağına girememek sadece sağda solda uyuduğunla ayakta olmak + o 3 günün 1 günündeki gece shiftini 8de bitirdiktne sonra hemen çıkıp uçağa yetişip muğladan istanbula gidip çap başvurusu yapıp geri muğlaya gelip aynı günün gecesi shift yapmak + uykusuzluktan literally 4 saat boyunca halüsinasyonlar görmek ve delirdim mi lan acaba diye kafayı yemek + ofiste erken geldin diye shiftin olmayan saatte 20 dk uyudun diye bir orospu çocuğunun seni şikayet etmesi ve uyarı yemek… işte benim hayatım arkadaşlar ahaha :3 i love it

TEZGAH LAN BU

girl. i think you might have some difficulties with reading comprehension. 
          i never said i was not the one to blame. why the fuck would i want to talk to you for an apolıgy if i thought i wasnt guilty. there were a lot of side effects that contributed to the chaos was what i meant. like those friends. or maybe just one friend. because i know for a fact that when i tried to have a conversation with you after a month or sth, you sent the screenshots to that ucube and she pumped you up against me. then you lashed out to me for no fucking reason. no speculations, hard evidence. 
          
          i dont want you to forgive me. its fine if you dont like me. yes there is an image i want to protect. but unlike what you think, i dont want any of you to think that im wise/collected, honestly i couldnt care less about it. my actions towards you were quite the opposite of those words, if i wanted that i would be more careful. im not in any sort of delusion. i know what i did. i just dont want the memories in your head to be manipulated by a toxic freak who doesnt know what she wants. i know what i have done and i know what i havent. starting a drama, that was never my intention. acting like you to make you see how you made me feel, that was. again, a third person intervention made everything worse, this time because of me. i made you friends with that creep so there is not much from me to talk about. just know that im sorry. again, im not expecting you to accept it. shit is beyond fucked up and even though im not that person anymore, you have every right to stay away from me, i dont even need to tell you. my aim is not to play with your emotions or with you, unlike a certain creep. i just value the good times we spent together, a lot. you might remember how nostalgic i am as a person. in memory of it, i felt like making an explanation. even if im not gonna mourn for it, i will think of you every now and then. you can only guess how much of an influence you were for me during my teenage years.