I used to have a different account (katherine19765) but for some reason it no longer worked and I could not for the life of me remember the my old email that I had signed up with years ago and had forgot to change it to my new email so I had to create this new account.
For the last few years I have suffered from anxiety, panic attacks, OCD and a touch phobia, it's so bad that everyday is a horrible one and even though I am getting help and going to talk to people who are mental health experts it still causes really bad arguments with my family. We all say things that we don't mean and more often than not I get called really horrible names my my mum, dad and sister but sometimes it gets so bad that I feel so depressed I start to wonder if my family would be better off if I wasn't her because what is the point of life if it's this bad.
But then I remember and think about my 7 year old niece, who really is the light at the end of a really dark tunnel. I think about her smile and the way she lights up a room, I think about her laugh and how I was the first person she laughed for when she was 5 weeks old. I remember the day my sister came home from the hospital with her (24th December 2013) and she was placed in my arms. I remember her big, bright blue eyes looking up at me and I swore to myself that I would be the best auntie ever and that I would always be there for her for anything and that's when I stop myself before I do anything bad cause I think about her and what it would do to her if I was gone.
So even though she probably wont see this message or even understand why I'm thanking her, I just want to say a massive thank you to my wonderful, beautiful, funny niece. Thank you for making my smile everyday and I want to say thank you for letting me be your auntie and I want you to know that no matter what happens or how ever far apart we are I love being your auntie and I love you so much (even when your a pain in the butt) and that will never change.❤❤
