@kidkipp
my dear friend, I understand,...and please remember, you just be you and take all the time in the world to sort things out at YOUR pace, to find YOUR inner place and mental space to continue doing what we BOTH know 'you' love to do.
ps,
the current 'Dark and Drarry' stuff, is just MY way of dealing with my own inner demons.
Sometimes?
We all gotta put that % h ! t somewhere or it will destroy you.
And, I know you have yours too, as most of that are honest with ourselves truly do.
Along the way I found out a valuable little secret so I'll share...
I found that facing them head on was the best remedy.
In the meantime, I'm sending out HUGE Hugs to you kipp with healing Angel Wings.
Miss ya,
@YaoiAngel13