kpop_686_anime

Hi guys.... I wasn't really active for a while now. The reason behind that is the battle I have with my mental health. The fight is still going on but I'm trying not to give up. Many stories will be changed. Vampires 2 being the first one with big changes. The time I wrote it I rushed things a little and now when I look at it I don't like many things. And ships too, I don't ship some people anymore. I hope that all of you will be okay with it and that you will like it. Hope you are all stay safe ☺️...

kpop_686_anime

Hi guys.... I wasn't really active for a while now. The reason behind that is the battle I have with my mental health. The fight is still going on but I'm trying not to give up. Many stories will be changed. Vampires 2 being the first one with big changes. The time I wrote it I rushed things a little and now when I look at it I don't like many things. And ships too, I don't ship some people anymore. I hope that all of you will be okay with it and that you will like it. Hope you are all stay safe ☺️...

kpop_686_anime

I hate myself...

AnxietyGotMeGood

@kpop_686_anime ..... You are not alone with this type of thinking..... I wish i could help.... Because I can somewhat understand what you feel (not all of it though.... My parents... Are WAY too supportive of me... It scares me into thinking it's because I am not good..... My dad... Does get angry... But not enough to fight.. It's scary..... But he always stops quickly...... My parents don't drink...... Sometimes.... I wish my parents WOULD give me their expectations for me...... But they don't..... And it's scary........) I also feel like there is someone better than me... Aka you are one of them... You are AMAZING at what you do... And I could never be capable of that..... I hate how I look... I am almost glad we have to wear masks all the time... Because then people don't have to see m my face....... I hate how i think... Because I can only see how terrible I am at everything... And how things can only go for the worse..... I hate how I talk... Because I am always taken the wrong way for how serious I sound (literally... I can't tell jokes OR sound sarcastic... Because I am too serious sounding...) AND my voice sucks...... I also hate myself.... Sometimes... I wonder why I exist.... Or why people even talk to me.......
            
            What I wanna say... Is.... If you ever want to talk to someone.... I can talk..... And listen.........  If this is irritating in any way... Please tell me and I will delete it....
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kpop_686_anime

@AnimeRocks5373 I don't meet my parents expections, things are getting hard in my life, every day there is a problem in my family, my parents fight, my dad is always drinking... It really took a tool on me. There is always someone better than me, I hate the way I look, I hate the way I think, I hate the way I talk, I just hate myself...
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AnxietyGotMeGood

@kpop_686_anime you are an AMAZING person... So why do you hate yourself?
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kpop_686_anime

I really want to die... Only thing that keep me going is hope... But even hope is leaving me too... I don't know what to do anymore. Taking a breath became hard, I don't think that I can continue like this any longer...

hanna_Miranda

Keep figthing not for us but for yourself
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hanna_Miranda

@kpop_686_anime hey we are here, don't leave us, we love you
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