LIZZ

is it bad i have the sudden urge to dye my hair blue with black roots

its been two years since i joined wattpad.

is it bad i feel the need to write a new book..... like i want it to be a mha band au. should i write one

FOR ALL OF YOU MHA FANS!!!
          
          I am currently working on a new book! It is called "till death do us part" its a dabixfem!reader. Small disclaimer, there will not be any smut, and i won't be publishing it until it has at least 3 chapters done. I am almost done with chapter one, so fear not, LIZ IS HERE! Sorry i had too anyways, this is the very short description '' IN WHICH a young boy meets a young girl, they fall in love, and yet it never seemed to stop death from happening. Even if they kill themselves to love one another. ,,  
          
          Comment please so i know if your seeing this!! Thank you!

did ya' miss me? ik i missed this!

TW-  lil vent.
          
          i just fucking realized that after i go back to school (after taking a month off) that ppl are going to know im not ok. they are going to know that im mentally hurt and drained. that whe i tol them i was fine i was lying to them. that im not actually fine i was lying so they know im fine and that they dont have to worry about me. god. also, i was diagnosed with PTSD, BPD, ADHD, Anxiety and depression. how fucking fun right?

can someone tell me why tf is there are -oy verbs in spanish? AND WHY DO THEY MEAN THE SAME THING?!?!?! LIKE THERE IS FOUR IN TOTAL, TWO MEAN THE SAME THING ESTAR- AND SER- THEM SHITS BOTH MEAN TO BE!!! explain.

"with the chicken strips" -my little brother whilst playing fortnite

Time has proven
          That fooling yourself into believing a lie
          Is the most effective way
          To deal with things you have no control over
          Keep listening to the mixtapes they made you
          Overanalyze every single word you hear
          "Was this a sign that things were going wrong"
          No no, you were the one that cared too hard, not them
          Stay up every single night staring at your phone
          Either attempting to gather up the courage
          To turn these demons, these constant reminders
          Of your loneliness into nothing more than a bad dream
          Or praying just for one second you could feel
          The warmth of equally returned love
          Go out for coffee four times a week by yourself
          Always bring your notebook, never stop writing
          Leave little comics and thank you notes with your tip
          Watch them smile as you get in your car
          Talk down on yourself whenever possible
          My life is shit because I deserve it, right?
          You must have done something real bad
          Its nearly impossible for you to cry now
          Avoid your friends for weeks even though
          They're the only sense of consistency you have
          Left in your life, if they really wanted
          To see you they'd come, but they won't (who cares?)
          Allow yourself to lose interest in the things you love
          Watch as you begin to take a backseat
          To the world around you, don't fight it
          Become a secondary character in your own motion picture
          But most importantly
          Drown every single one of your feelings
          In old stolen rum
          Learn to love the taste of it dripping down your throat
          Find comfort in the warmth coming from your stomach
          You're drinking bottled love now
          You don't need other people to drive away your loneliness
          You just needed to find a way to talk to it
          
          
          this>>>you

!!SH TRIGGER!!
          My bf: promise me you won't do it again?
          me: i promise..
          a week later (today):
          me: im sorry.. im breaking the promise. 
          it hurts so fucking much. this pain inside of me is just so overwhelming.  i can't take it. so i take my pain out on myself. no i do not want to die. i want this pain to go away and never show its self again.