Who Am I? - A Portrait of the Narrator
I am a paradox-a warrior with the gentlest heart, a protector who couldn't protect his own happiness, a giver who forgot to save something for himself.
The Soldier:
I'm a military officer who rose from ordinary soldier to Second Lieutenant through sheer dedication. I endure harsh physical punishments, brutal discipline, and the rigid structure of camp life. I wake at 4 AM for grueling Physical Training, carry the weight of endless duties, and face beatings that tear my skin-yet none of this pain compares to the ache in my heart.
The Student:
Driven by love, I enrolled in "Cyber Security and Digital Forensics" at a private university, not for career ambition, but to bridge the gap between her world and mine. I juggle camp responsibilities, campus assignments, and office reports on 15-45 minutes of sleep per night, my mind functioning between consciousness and collapse.
The Lover:
I am someone who loves with frightening totality. I'm the man who:

Walked 10 kilometers through the dark night when stranded without money
Stood 8 hours at the airport, hungry and exhausted, just to see her for seconds
Stayed up until dawn every single night, sacrificing sleep, health, and sanity
Changed my entire personality to become who she wanted
Quit cigarettes and alcohol without her even asking
Protected her from shadows she never knew existed
Kept my promises even after she broke hers

The Innocent:
Despite my military training, I'm remarkably pure. I had never:

Been intimate with anyone before her
Even engaged in self-pleasure
Held a girl's hand
Received a kiss
Used crude language

I approached love with the innocence of a child and the devotion of a saint. I called her "Rose Flower" and "Sweetheart." I referred to her intimately as "my Rose" even when she called me "Bro."
The Self-Destroyer:
I'm a man who confused love with self-erasure. I: