madi

im so surrounded by love and happiness. its incredible. the people i talk to regularly are so supportive and kind. i have friends who are asking me to hang out every day. im going to prom on a party bus with all of the people i love. im going to college. im about to get a job at a local hospital. ive gotten rid of almost all of the toxicity in my life and it is so refreshing. 
          
          back in august i was pushed to the point of walking away from my best friend one morning before school and never going back and since then i have felt like a new person. the air i breathe is fresher and the days are so much brighter. i dont feel the heaviness of depression anymore. it is very important to differentiate between genuine love and love that stems from manipulation.
          
          this time last year i thought it was impossible to feel like i do now. i was very deep in depression and anxiety and i never got out of the house. i never spoke to anyone but my best friend. my life was a slow moving train about to fall off the dilapidated tracks. i thought i would never find someone to love me and i thought i would never feel happiness. but now everything has changed and it feels so good. so so good. 
          
          anyway that was my rant haha. hope u guys all feel this way someday if you dont already 
          
          ps who even cares about grammar lmao
          

i wish i was a sleepy sad person but instead i am sleepless and sad 

hi. i know its probably weird that ive come back after almost a year. im just kinda sad (but in a lowkey way) and writing makes that sadness a little less effective. if youre reading my poems then thank you. i miss seeing some of your comments on here and on my other page. i wish i could get back into that groove. 
          
          anyway, thank you for being here for me without knowing it. thank you to leonie for always being someone i could go to. i know i havent spoken much in the last week or so but im just so ugh. i love you dearly no matter what. thank you to tash also. i know we dont talk much anymore but i still love you lots. youre both so important to me. 
          
          well theres me being emotional. i hope you all have a lovely night

HAPPY BIRTHDAY :) :) haha sorry just wanted to do it on more than just one social media

Maddiiiie :)) just wanted to apologize for so many long comments, I couldn't resist :D I hope you're having a good day :) ♡

Hiii

hai 

Hey dad, I accidentally found you lol (it's larrystills from Tumblr)

im also a fellow agender hihi

I'm gonna read your Kellic oneshots :3