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I'm so anxious and overwhelmed right now. After all of the fun i have,all of it makes me sick after all,i realized i'm with them but not with who i am. I don't really know what to do with myself,i'm being confused about my identity,back it was sexually but now is mentally. I always try to tell them about what i think but ended up making up a joke from my bad feeling,they forgot all of that,i know why but i still can't face th truth that a whole time i'm getting happy and loud,goofy it just me cheer my friends up and make them feel comfortable with me. This stage gonna last long,i feel the connection with my character now,the cursed works - shit no,it always like that before i just won't face it.