losingheart

So what am I even doing in this life anymore. Depression is slowly killing me from the inside. Every time I think things start to get better again, they fall apart. I feel lost, lost inside myself. No one noticing. Most of people I told about my feelings don't give a shit. But yeah who cares. Im just so tired of fighting and finally getting something in return and a single moment later everything is dark and all I want is cut and die. Its like a fight thst cant be won, cause how can you win and lose at the same t nut no onee. Im hurting

I knew a boy who could draw,
          He drew pictures that nobody saw.
          He was most artistic late at night,
          In the bathroom, out of sight.
          He kept a secret no one knew,
          He didn't tell a soul and his gallery grew.
          His drawings were different, no paper or pen,
          But needed a bandage now and again.
          We stood by the river under the stars,
          He rolled up his sleeves and showed me his scars.
          He felt embarrassed and looked down at his shoe,
          Then I rolled up my sleeves and whispered, "I draw too."
          
          
          This confronted me.. I am not that often on Wattpad, but I needed a place to share this. I am scared of becoming a mess again. It's almost the end of the schoolyear and I should be really happy and stuff, but actually I can't sleep at night. I am just too stressed and keep overthinking and I can't stop it.. I just want to fall asleep before I fall apart.

@_repentandrepeat_ Yaaay. Of course, but then you first have to go with me to the supermarket, because you don't have a microwave xd ♥♥

@_repentandrepeat_ Well I didn't know it was from a song or something :0 Thanks, you're so kind and special :)
          I love you ♥
          Btw, I do like cheesecake hahahaha. Okay.

I don't know.. Are they? ;o

Feeling lonely right now.. My best friend (and how I see, my only friend) is sleeping, cause she was really tired.. I miss her.. I don't know if I will be able to sleep.. u.u

@_repentandrepeat_ thankyou ;) so are you! I'm really trying not to.. I love you to ♥ You will succeed  with stopping I'm sure ;)

Felt weird today.. I was very tired and a bit sad.. In Spanish class I felt really lonely.. I almost started to cry and  I got the feeling like I had to cut.. But I couldn't do that oc.. My day wasn't that bad, my bestfriend cheered me up. That made me feel a bit better. 
          《Stay strong》

No problem! :) Btw, I think your stories are very good! xx