As my everyday routine had been, I was listening to BTS' Dark&Wild and HYYH songs today, trying to drown out the sounds coming from the living room of my family fighting. it felt amazing to just immerse myself into their older eras, the music, the vibe, the message, as I had been doing for the past few months, and I reminisced one of the first times I heard their music, which was the RUN song, when I was still trying to escape my reality and in denial, Music really calmed me and soothed my mind. It was my 2 best tools, alongside prayers(kinda ironic, ik but I don't listen to explicit songs) to calm myself and hold my composure against all that was going on, ig that was also the reason why I joined the fandom, cause even tho it may make an unhealthy connection and love, it was very much what I required to keep my mind. Eventually, I got a better hold of myself, I could feel myself get tired of their music, which was on repeat, when I wasn't listening in class, and I slowly withdrew before my admiration turned into an obsession. that was my journey and anyway, back to point,
Then they upload the festa 2021 and it felt oddly reassuring, when they sand all those old songs, the change that was there, in the voice, delivery, feel. I felt mildly reassured that time heals everything. and I will continue to have faith in God and the future to come. Just a life snippet/observation I wanted to share with everyone, hope it didn't bore you and tell me what you think abt it! :)
Love,
AZ