macabrebatz

I seriously just messed up my horror book so I’m going to unpublished it and fix it again

wildfirewolf04

I enjoy reading Hell of a ride book  and I was wondering, are you rewriting it?

macabrebatz

At the moment I’m not sure if I’ll continue writing it or rewrite it. I kind of wrote myself into a hole and wasn’t liking the direction of it, so I haven’t really messed with it in a while. I want to continue it but I’m not sure when that will be
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macabrebatz

Unpublishing my horror book for a bit while I get something sorted out. Don’t worry, I didn’t delete it. If you want to read my stuff while I work on it, my tumblr & AO3 is macabrebatz. I’m more active on those sites anyways (especially Tumblr)

macabrebatz

Hi, all. Long time no see. Just dropping in to say I’m currently working on some new stuff (surprised pikachu face) and I’m currently rewriting some of my headcanons of the slashers. So if you notice that some chapters of my horror book are gone, that’s why. Don’t worry, new slashers headcanon chapters will be made. It’s just been so long that I wrote them that some of my headcanons have changed over the years. So I want my headcanon chapters to reflect that lol

macabrebatz

I met Andy Black today and it’s still sinking in

Somethingscary21

@leztrangem That's awesome!!!
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peteywilliams_

omg that’s amazing
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AudrieBryant

@leztrangem you're so lucky!!!!!
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macabrebatz

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“you're fucked up. and you're tired. you are so, so tired.
          so you write
          you write them broken, you write them human, you write them spitting blood out of bruised lips, sneering and crying.
          you write them desperate, you write them lonely in their bathroom, eyes red. you write them with broken mirrors and you write them angry.
          you write them like they could be loved, like they are on the edge of being loved, like they could just be loved if they were only to try harder, to be enough.
          you write them hated, and hating themselves, you write them ashamed and begging to God, you write them ears ringing. you write them panicked and aching, and yearning and empty.
          you write them hungry, you write them with cracked lips.
          you write them and you pretend that it's not you in the pages.
          you write them and pray to God yourself, that you're not being written too.
          you write them.
          you're so tired.
          you keep writing them.” 
          
          
          From @/ felonys-amazing-poetry-tm on Tumblr

macabrebatz

This is the best way to describe my OCs and my feelings towards writing in general. My mental health hasn’t been the best lately and writing feels like the most unbearable task some days. But when I do write, especially with books like Hell of a Ride or the books I’ve yet to post, I put everything I’m feeling into those pages. My OCs will never be perfect. They will never be fully okay as long as I’m not. Apart of me wants to live vicariously through them. But the other part wants them to feel how I feel. And although they aren’t real, that feels a bit selfish.
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