Hello, sanctuary.
I need to update you all on my situation because I’m so scared.
He seems to be doing a lot better, mentally, but I can never be sure. I haven’t broken up with him yet. I’ve just been treating it like we’re friends which is fine because we were never super romantic in the first place.
I’ve been trying to find reasons to stay with him and honestly I can only think of the fact hat U enjoy his friendship and company. I think that’s why I got back together with him in the first place, and I shouldn’t have done that.
He asked me today if we could talk about relationship stuff, and I said yes but he hasn’t answered so I don’t really know what’s gonna happen with that. I don’t feel like he’s gonna break up with me, I think he’s gonna say something about how he wants to move forward in the relationship and I don’t want that.
Maybe that will open doors to us breaking up, I don’t know.
I’m scared that our friend group will have to choose between us and that they’ll choose him and once again I’ll be kicked out of a family.
It’s really scary and I just wish I never got myself into this mess.
Also I just got my gpa from a 2.9 to a 3.275 in like three days and my dads still pissed at me so I really don’t know what life wants.