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i had another dream where i got to see you. i'm beginning to think they're nightmares. i'm beginning to think you're haunting me. this fucking sucks
          
          sapnap told me what you said, i know what you said. i'm reaching, i can't stop reaching. you had feelings for me, and they left you. the night i dreamt of you, you told him they were gone
          
          was it all at the same time, george? did you feel it happen? 
          
          whatever chance i had i missed it. i missed it. i missed you, didn't i? 
          
          i talked to my mom about you, she still wants you over dinner, you know. i saw it in you stupid, pretty face. i saw that for a moment, you wanted it to come true. you wanted to be me, kissing you. right?
          
          or... am i doing this again? 
          
          you were never serious about wanting me. even when i asked. even when you lied. would you lie to me, george? 
          
          sometimes all i think about is you. why did you send me that song to me, george? really? i can't get it out of my head
          
          was it all a joke? did you know that it would undo me? did you try-