I still like surfing into an ocean conjured up of words with waves of emotions trying to swallow me full but... just not in mine anymore.  
I clung onto a raft of fiction that kept me from drowning whole 
I wonder what I was doing on water when a sky full of stars was there for me at the shore. 

It was when I was cold and alone 
I realized that the starlight was with me all along

I still see the mountains spread out wide with an enormous height, trying to block the sun... just not mine anymore 

Now
I see the lie
I see the light 
And the truth