life is hard but a brick is harder remeber that

People ask "what makes you depressed? You smile, laugh and do nice stuff."
I answer " yes I do but there are days I can get out of bed and only hope that I die. And there is the whole time one taught in my head and that is that I want to draw with silver a star that turns in to red."
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nGjlT1ZbkP0&index=1&list=RDnGjlT1ZbkP0
listen to this when reading my books it's worht it