Sumaglit ako sa MoA today dahil MIBF na naman. I miss the atmosphere but things change, iba na agenda ko ever since I stopped writing.
I remember the time Elesi was launched at MIBF, excited at optimistic pa ako but reality hit hard. Ilan lang pumunta sa booksigning, iba dun kakilala ko pa. No ones cares about my presence at Wattpad meetups dahil wala naman halos BxB readers doon.
More BxBs have been published now, and I see lists on Facebook compiling where to buy them, but my book isn't there. Can't blame them since ang tagal na nung lumabas ang Elesi. Pero nakakatampo pa rin. So much na BL manga, Black Ink books o komiks sa Komiket lang binili ko kaysa Wattpad BxBs.
Marami pa akong "tsaa" pero I'll keep them to myself. But I'd say nadala na ako. I thought it was a dream come true but reality came crashing down.