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i wanna die.

deeper and deeper i’m sinking im drowning
          one little trip and i know that i’ll fall in
          deeper and deeper im thinking im crying
          too many thoughts in my head gotta
          
          let. it. go.

ily and i hope you know you’re loved 

i’m tired

i’m sorry guys. i’m sorry if i scared you guys. recently, i’ve been forgetting to take my antidepressants and it’s been messing with my head a lot. i had a severe depressive episode a few days ago and attempted. fortunately or unfortunately, whatever floats your boat, it didn’t work. but yeah. i met with  jyp and i’m a trainee now i guess so yay

I don't know what is going on, but I just felt like you should know that there is a plan for you. You are here for a reason. I promise you, that you have a great plan ahead of you. There is something great waiting for you. No matter what you think or what you have been told, you are important. Anyway, I hope everything is okay. Just know you are loved.

it didn’t work. why didn’t it work.

a girl that is just some stupid wannabe idol. 
          idol.
          girl.
          a girl that doesn’t like life.
          life.
          death.
          a girl that thinks that death is the only escape.
          escape.
          run.
          a girl who thinks that leaving can help her run away from her problems.
          problems.
          brain.
          a girl who’s brain needs some help.
          help.
          cut.
          a girl who cuts until she can’t.
          can’t.
          stop.
          a girl who stops caring about everything.
          everything.
          nothing.
          a girl who has nothing left. 
          left.
          gone.
          a girl who wants to be gone from this place. 
          place. 
          bathroom.
          a girl who sits in her bathroom to cry.
          cry. 
          die.
          a girl who has no choice but to die.

My bais! I love you ❤️

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