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is it wrong if i said that i miss you :')

im missing you but what can i do :/

less interaction for this semester, boleh kira la berapa kali je we talked. im always hoping that we will get assigned into a group together. sebab aku nak ada interaction dengan dia, nak bercakap dengan dia. tu je cara for me to talk with him, sebab i lowkey miss the time where we joking, laughing with each other. seriously. and now, aku rasa dah give up because why? bcs i feel like im being extra. nampak beria mat. every time we have eye contact, it feels so damn awkward. kalau dulu, dia mesti gelak gelak. now, awkward gila beb. sampaikan aku yang kena break eye contact tu bcs i can't look at him. sakit la, kenapa eh tersuka. im trying to move on slowly, but we're classmates, im gonna see him daily. tapi takpela, slow slow jak. u can do it :)

maybe i don't want to let go even if i should do so :)

rindu. tapi biasalah kita kena pendam sebab no one cares about it. aku penat senanya but i try to look like i dont. honestly, im tired. macam biasalah, biarkan. hm dahla takleh tidur. esok ada kelas pukul 10 hm stress 

pls be happy always <3 

it's been awhile since i felt this :/ funny how i felt this just bcs of a small interaction between us. yes, if it wasn't for that day we need to do the activity together, we wouldn't have talk often. and we wouldn't joke with each other. sometimes i know it was too early to feel anything, but the whole month of december, i've been fighting my own feelings about this. now, it's january. and i can that my feelings are literally legit bcs i've been head over heels towards him these days. i cant help it anymore and i'm afraid if i make it obvious :( every single time when he talk to me, said my name and look at me, i get crazy over it. it's just one thing, no two things, that kinda make it hard for me accept it. he's someone's else. he's non muslim. it's not i force myself to like him, it was not intentional. i try to ignore the feelings before, but i can't. it makes the feelings getting stronger hm :') aku taknak beria tau, tapi kalau terberia tu hm buat buat tak nampak jela ye. i know i catch feelings too early. i fell in love. we're in the same course, but i hope i can still talk with you for the upcoming semesters.

happy 29th birthday to my first ever bias, my love and my favourite person, park jinyoung ♡ please be happy and healthy always. in the future, no matter what you're doing, i will always support you.  thank you for making me happy these 7 years. cant wait to see you again soon <3 

things were better before :)

my final sem 3 exam is next week :> and i'll finish my form 6 era hihi