hi… I came across your message on one of my most favorite authors’ pages someone I stumbled upon and still deeply miss. it was on rhodori’s page, and when I read your comment about second trial, I couldn’t just scroll past it. the way you wrote about your feelings, the way you opened up… it really stayed with me.
I was lucky enough to have spoken to her once. she replied to me after I binge-read all her works at once I remember it so clearly because after reading kiss my wounds, I got so attached, like I just couldn’t stop. I sent her a long appreciation message back in July 2023, and it still feels unreal that it’s almost been three years now ( I have a screenshot of it I fangirled so hard.) I miss her just as much, honestly. her stories… they weren’t just stories, they felt like something that held you together when everything else was falling apart.
I don’t know if she’ll ever come back, but if she does, I genuinely think I’d be one of the happiest people alive. I was just scrolling through my library at 2 a.m., looking for something to read, and I saw second trial still sitting there… I never had the heart to remove it. neither hiwaga nor kiss my wounds. some things just stay, you know? but aside from all that… I just wanted to reach out to you. the way you spoke about what you’re going through I see you. I hear you. and I just want you to know that you matter, okay? even if it doesn’t feel like it right now. you’re not just “getting through another day,” you’re surviving things that most people wouldn’t even understand.
and you don’t have to carry all of that alone. if you ever need someone to listen, to just sit with you through it, I’m here. no judgment, no pressure. you’re a beautiful human being, even on the days you feel like you’re falling apart
