night-demons

im oging to he sick oh my god i cNt wait for tomorow

joan of arc era  for realll

i feel like im going insane

i think if i dont text people first i wont end up talking to anyone this summer like
          i texted you at eight in the morning and you got back to me now , after midnight 
          i get you had work but  i answered immediately like
          did i upset you or something im sorry

been thinking about simon giving himself wings because of Baz’s queer upbringing sort of paralleling his vampirism and how sinilar the cases are . 
          the fact he has grown up with it and learned to work around it or just not bring it up at family gatherings and stuff ?? its so obviously a metaphor for being queer , like they agree to just Not Discuss it and its a whole thing for him . im thinking that simons wings sort of have the same significance because it’s something that just kind of happened , he had never thought of himself as anything but straight until baz , and also all throughout the books goes from the initial just sort of “ Oh . this is a part of me now “ to him trying to embrace them [ flying around above trucks with them , going to ren faire with them on full display ] while being relatively happy within his relationship but also sort of anxious [ enjoying being close , worried about breaking up , confused as to how to navigate it all ] to trying to get them removed while BREAKING UP WITH BAZ !!!! LIKE !!! and even the way he ends with them intact and also in a good relationship ?? he learned to love EVERY part of himself even the ones not originally anticipated ?? 
          it is so obvious i dont know how i didnt connect the two sooner

what is the policy for waking someone up who you dont really know in a hotel
          like ive been up for three hours please wake up soon i want to get breakfast </3

being sent to the doctor for being too silly </3
          
          [ my mom said im overstressed and not sleeping enough and being “ really selfish with my emotions “ so she wants me to be put on stabilizers ]

i wish i had that drink from the hunger games capitol parties

i dont understand teenage break up culture cause like either  im an insanely hopeless romantic or they’re all doing something wrong but i literally want to spend forever with my boyfriend
          like 
          god man hes just so sweet i cant imagine anything without him but i dont want to seem dramatic

i think im too selfish