emily

missing u em

uh so im gonna leave wattpad (lowkey gonna ramble a little now)
          
          the first ever fanfic i ever read was a klance one in like 2022 on the wattpad website when i only had my dad's old phone (which i'd stolen and charged so i could use it in secret) and didnt have an account and couldnt be bothered getting one until like mid 2023 so i'd get into it by clicking on the links to photos and reading stuff from there until wattpad would ask me to make an account, and i'd just do the same thing again. eventually, that stopped working and i created a new email purely for a wattpad account. cant remember my first account, but ive had this one since dec 2023, and it's seen so many hyperfixations and almost all of my fandoms since
          
          ive finally graduated from wattpad to ao3, and i just cant see myself using wattpad for fanfiction anymore, so i dont think theres a point in having the app anymore. when ao3 went down, i tried to use this and i just genuinely couldnt get through it. it's funny because i used to be so against ao3 and would be all mad if a fic was only available on there and id be so happy when i could come back here once i'd finished it. it is kind of sad you can't download stuff the same way you can with wp though
          
          there are so many of you that ive met that are so so kind and so amazing. thank you sm for being here. thank you sm for listening to me when i yap. thank you for yapping back. thank you for being a distraction. thank you for being so nice that ive cried. thank you for writing awesome stuff. and thank you for everything else
          
          i met most of you through one direction related people and fics, so when i think back to my raging 1d obsession, ill remember you. that also goes the tmr fans here too, because that was also really obsessive. also that new years prom thing i did in i think 24-25?
          
          anyway, i hope you all take care of yourselves and know that you're loved and that i'll miss you. 
          i dont think ill be back, so bye guys xxx

also my friend's bf was in the netball with me and his passing was so ass but got mad and me and the other netballers in our team when we told him to slow down like bro. shove your ego up your ass, stop, and LOOK WHO YOURE PASSING TO. YOU HAVE THREE WHOLE SECONDS. YOU DONT NEED TO BIFF IT AT ME BECAUSE I WONT CATCH SOMETHING THATS ABOVE MY HEAD AND A METRE TO THE RIGHT. bro was talking about how "but they cant intercept it" WELL NO ONE'S GONNA BE ABLE TO CATCH THAT EITHER, YOUVE LITERALLY CHUCKED IT OUT OF COURT FOR THEM

bro i was doing ki o rahi at my sports exchange today and i accidentally stood on this guy's foot and he was in SOCKS and i had SPRIGS and i felt so bad bro ToT at least mine are plastic and not metal

HIIIII

i feel like it's not that crazy to say that someone who isnt disabled can use a walking aid if they need it???
          
          i literally spent over half the day limping and having to sit or lie down because of the pain and numbness in my entire right leg and couldnt think clearly because of it, but apparently it's crazy if i want a crutch to help that, isnt it? 
          
          (btw this is probably due to endometriosis affecting my sciatica nerve)

i have a geography internal due today but my dad gave me fucking covid and im already so tired from trials last night and brooo

holy moly i am so exhausted, i'll fall asleep any minute bro

guys i might have to go back to that fuckass boarding school next year </3 purely because my school is so small that the science isnt taught well and ill end up with gaps when i want to do paramedicine :(

UGH I HAVE SO MANY INTERNALS