I'd made my decision. It may hurt but I think that was the best for me and for everyone. Well I thats what I think. I'd been thinking about this since last holiday, every single night before I go to sleep and whenever I was daydreaming. After a long, though and hard thinking, this is the result.
I'll unstanning them.
Just them.
Not their music
Or
Their album track-lists.
Yes, you read it right. I will stop unstanning them. When? Why? What? Will?
I'll start doing this by now. It's a very hard decision to take because I like them. It just, my heart is not open and can't bring myself to stan and loving them as I love and cherish my fave group. I know love can be inculcated as time passing but that's not easy as it said. Rather than wasting my time to wait my heart to accept them, I hardly think it's better to move on.
Reason?
Wanna know the real fudging reasons?
I'm not capable enough to love two persons at the same time. You know, it hurts to see one of them have to suffer as choose the other one. It hurts me so freaking bad. I almost cry. Eventho I keep loving them, I'm not sure I'll be able to stay loyal to them within 6 to 7 years in coming.
Tbc...