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ben barnes tho...

lol literally crying bc i hate this wedding so much. I cant even begin to describe the uncomfy i felt at the rehearsal dinner but its ok bc like that's life ig? anyway i hate my dress so much and wearing it for 6 hrs tomorrow might kill me :/

Lmao I didn't end up moving and everything is way chaotic rn ngl. Goal is to survive a wedding this weekend then convince the guy im talking to to talk to my dad so I can hang out w/ him again and finish watching star wars.

My house is going up for sale in 13 days. I’m moving before my junior year in high school. God dammit I had so much going for me this coming year. I was so close to being happy and now I’m just sobbing bc I don’t know what to do. I’m leaving everything behind and I don’t know how I’m gonna survive. I just wanna be happy! Why do I always get so close and then it gets taken away? I don’t wanna move I wanna stay and that’s probably selfish bc everyone else wants to move but shouldn’t what I want be considered too? Why do I have to sacrifice everything just so other ppl can be happy? Is that what life is about? Kinda feels like it at this point.

I miss technoblade

Crying is the best way to get out ur emotions bc sometimes talking is too hard and hurts. Lol guess what happened to me 

Guys I’m so screwed. It’s almost 2 am and I’m lying in be listening to Taylor swift. So obviously there’s a guy and we are coworkers and I started this little game I guess where we visit each other during our shifts and it’s low key killing me. I can’t stop thinking about him and looking at like the one picture rod him and he just makes me so happy. But I don’t have his number and I don’t work with him this coming week and so most of our conversations are just non verbal and filled with laughing and making faces and smirking on his part with eye rolling on my end. And oh my gosh I can’t explain how he makes me feel but I’m also really conflicted bc he’s a coworker and I guess I’ve been through a lot recently with guys and it’s all been bad and I guess I’m a bad judge of character so I’m kinda worried that he might not be a good guy like I think and just that he’s gonna be like the other guys and uhhhh idk. Help pls? I’m so conflicted and confused and I’m not sure what’s real with him anymore… why is this so hard? I just wanna be in a happy relationship.

My cousins made me go to the ice cream place I work in a swimsuit and the coworker I like was working and I wanted to die. That’s all thanks! 

I’ve decided guys suck. I’m so done with being sexually harassed and assaulted. I’m done getting notifications from Snapchat that are just guys asking for nudes. I’m done checking my dms on Instagram thinking that a guy wants to be a friend only for him to try and get in my pants the second I respond. I’m done being used, manipulated, and sexualized. If you have a problem with that or think I’m being dramatic lmk and I’ll give u the details of all of the guy shit I’ve had to deal with in the past 9 months alone. If you’re a guy tho pls don’t do theses things it only leaves girls feeling hurt and confused, mostly wondering if all they’re good for is sex and why this always seems to happen to them bc everyone else gets asked on dates and they get asked to hook up making them think they’re just not good enough tho be a gf since all people want from them is sex. So until guys decided to be decent human beings and stop treating me and other girls like objects I’m done. Thank you.

My AC broke and I wanna cry bc it’s in general been an exhausting day and now I can’t sleep bc it’s too hot in my room