Margie

I honestly dont know what's my next plan, i'm pressured.

I lose interest in everything, I could even give up now but these thoughts holds me back T-T I don't want my man to feel like everything he has ever done isn't enough to make me forget about how cruel life is and how much I hate to be alive.

save me.

my boyfriend and I suddenly talked about future childrens. Then he asked "ikaw babe? Gusto mo nang ma-attitude na anak?"
          
          "yung mana sa'kin" I replied.
          
          "disiplinado and good manners, okay na ako do'n" he said.
          
          I so love this man, haven't even thought about those yet actually. Hearing this from my man makes me feel like he really includes me in his future.

ate, i wanna die. Can i?

wandering what are you thinking about right now, i just hope it has a good results.

so cold, i need to be in your embrace but I want you to have your rest. You've had a long day yet you still managed to come and fetch me on my ojt at the exact time. Thank you for doing lots of things for me, i've never had these before. Thank you for waiting for me 'til I finish everything. Thank you for staying even though I've pushed you away multiple of times. Thank you for everything, for not leaving me when everything's feisty tough. Thank you for enduring this tough pride of mine and for enduring this damned attitude of mine. I am greatful indeed that I found you exactly when I'm so alone and so down. You've given light to my sad and dark world, you're my moon indeed. Have a rest my one and only moonlight, Iloveyoualways~

is it normal to feel this way? is it normal to feel pains and happiness at the same time? is it normal to have doubts yet feeling secured at the same time? I wanna know 

i'm about to explode, urgh!

can't keep my hidden thoughts be hidden.