(NEGATIVE THOUGHTS)|If you uncomfortable with all of this, please leave...|
So... I just want to say, all the story I make will be slow updates. Just want to say, I'm a minor and I still in school. But the point is my negative thoughts? I don't know what to call it anymore. I always get a negative thoughts on myself, even if someone make a jokes about it, I always took everything seriously. I know if we're make mistake, we will be success in the future... But what if we didn't actually succes? I always thought that. I always thought bad about myself. I didn't like seeing my friends suffer or sad, so I always have to make sure they feel safe but at the same time, I feel lonely. I feel lonely no matter what. I felt like this world is a lie or cruel but that is our trial right? This is to prove our fears? I didn't have any sign of depression or anxiety, but I always felt nervous around people. I always stutter, and felt shiver everytime I have to talk to someone or someone touch me. I feel lonely no matter what. I always getting bullied and people calls me annoying, to the point I stop trying to make friends and socialise. My sister always said I need to socialise but I just don't know where to start... Everytime I felt like someone or one of my family members mad at me, I always felt like give up and felt like I want to cry. I always keep my tears inside since primary school, since I started to lose hope on making friends. Everytime I try to say something about myself, I already know all of them will misunderstood about it, because one of my friend told me there this girl I once talk with, talk behind my back. I act like I didn't care. But deep inside, I always thought, why am I even acting... Why I always thought everything will be okay? If you guys want to say anything, then please say something... No rude comments because all of this is true, this is how I thought...